All or Nothing (Urban) Book 9 | The Sideline Series

Chapter 10

Goldie

I tensed up at the sound of Banga walking through my apartment door. I quickly closed my overnight bag and shoved it under my so Banga wouldn't know I'd be leaving tonight. He really hates for me to leave him and I really don't want to argue with him tonight about what I'm doing or where I'm going, so I'll just have to wait until he leaves to go over Prince's. When I usually stay the night with Prince, it's a night when I know Banga is out of town or won't be back home. I just come back early enough so that Banga won't know I'm gone. But here lately he's been coming to my apartment and staying the night a lot more often and I hate it.

Banga and I have only been together for seven months but it feels more like seven years. Banga is so controlling and over bearing and it feels like I'm in a relationship with my Father. Banga always has to control what I'm doing, where I'm going and who I'm doing certain things with and that makes me lie to him. I don't want to lie to him but why should I sit around my apartment studying all night while he's out fucking bitches left and right? He claims he's faithful but I see him feeling up on hoes in Vanity. He purposely feels up on girls and comes out to the club when he knows I'm working that night just to get under my skin. And just like I see him feeling up on hoes, I see him leaving the club with them too.

Banga isn't the best boyfriend but he spotted me out when I came to this area for school. My intention was to never be in a relationship with him but when he became consistant with picking me up, dropping me off, popping up on me and my friends anywhere we went and giving me money just because he likes me, I felt bad for him. He was always so desperate when it came to me so I just went out with him once. One date turned into him thinking we're in a relationship and now he won't let me leave him. I tried to end things once before when he tried to put his hands on me but he threatened to get me fired from my job and I believe he would.

Banga isn't just any ole nigga from off the streets. Banga is one of the guys that works for Prince and the club is where I met him. Banga isn't your regular dope boy either. He gets the product from Prince and has guys of his own to sell his weight. His hands never touch any of the drugs he buys from Prince. All he does is have people sell it while he sits back and collects off of them. And here and there he'll have outside activities that he'll have to handle but for the most part, Banga has other people making his money.

By no means am I with Banga for a come up. I was making good money at the club before I met him and I'm making even more money now. Of course being Banga's main girl helped me bring in more money at the club but I know I could've done it on my own, even if I didn't have a situationship with Prince either. All I need is to get paid under the table so my job won't effect my financial aid for school and the club is doing that for me. Most jobs don't pay under the table, and with the money I'm making at the club, I wouldn't be receiving any aid for my education. But now that I'm working, I can afford to pay for my education.

"Goldie!" Banga barked. 

I quickly pulled the cover over the bottom of my bed so he wouldn't be able to see the bag and I sat on the edge of my bed. I already had a couple of books out so I grabbed the book for my Technical Writing class and opened it to a random page so it could look like I was studying. Almost instantly, Banga burst into my room with a smile on his face, which was somewhat unusual. Normally, he's upset about something that's going on at work or he's stressed out with work.

"Don't act like you ain't heard me talking to you girl," he chuckled as he snatched my book out of my hands and plopped down on the edge of my bed.

I tightly closed my eyes and rolled my eyes. I don't know why he always feels like he needs to come before my education. I hate to compare the two, but at least Prince takes notice in my education and wants me to finish school. Banga isn't like that. It always has to be about him and if it's not about him, he forces himself to be the center of everyone's attention.