The Reject & Mr. Mafia's Daughter (MESMERIZED SERIES BOOK THREE)

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-Alex's POV-

"She doesn't even care what I want," I whined to Chloe and Sami, "It's all about her!"

I will willingly admit that I overreacted a bit earlier today at Soph's appointment. I didn't actually leave her there by herself though, if that's what you're concerned about.

Yeah, I really really wanted to, but I couldn't.

I'm not that much of an asshole.

"She can be a brat sometimes," Chloe said, "Just...show her that you're there for her. She thinks we're all teaming up against her. And whatever you do...don't threaten to leave her," she said before leaving the room.

I looked up to see Sami eyeing me as if I had just committed the ultimate act of betrayal, "What? I seethed. Everyone was blaming me for Sophia's recent anger.

I disagreed with them. I wasn't in the wrong here, her stupid dad was. Wasn't I the one who tried to prevent all of this?

Yes. Yes, I was.

She was closer to her dad now than she ever was after I met her and I just got to sit here and watch.

"I can't believe you told Sophia that you were going to leave her," Sami raged, "You don't tell a pregnant girl that! She's emotional right now and you telling her that is going to make her hate you even more! You'll never dig yourself out of that hole, Alex!"

I just sat there, taking all of her words in. There was no point in saying anything because nobody was going to agree with me anyway.

I think at this point, if Sophia cried hard enough, her dad was going to let her get an abortion, screw what her mom and I think.

What if these were the only kids I ever had?

I wasn't about to see them thrown away like that.

I got up and left the room, letting Sami throw even more angry words my way as I left her all alone, mid ramble.

I ran up the stairs and barged right into Sophia's room, seeing that she was sprawled out on the bed, holding her phone in front of her face. She was engulfed in whatever she watching.

"Can I help you?" She asked boringly, without ever taking her eyes off the screen.

"I'm sorry to bother you, princess," I came off a lot more upset than I had planned. I wanted to show her that I was mad, but my tone went a little over board. "You're shutting me out, Sophia and it's pissing me off," I took her phone away from her so that she had no choice but to look at me and listen. "Why are you so quick to get rid of them? How would you feel if you knew your mom wanted the same thing with you when she was pregnant?"

"I wouldn't have known, would I?" She spoke very slowly, showing me just how much she was upset right now. "Honestly Alex, the more you tell me that I can't do this, the more that makes me want to. I'm not ready to be a mother and it's best for everyone that I don't become one right now."

"You have to stop thinking about yourself now, Soph. This isn't about you anymore! What about me and what I want? What about them?"

"What about them, Alex?"

It took every ounce of self control that I had not to yell at her.

Talking to her is like talking to a fucking brick wall! It's goddamn impossible. "What is it going to take for you to think about something other than yourself?"

She totally disregarded my entire question, "I think maybe you should go back to New York. My dad is taking me to see a doctor tonight and it would probably be easier on you if you weren't around for that," she spoke so softly I almost missed it.