What's wrong
They ask day after day
Why won't it stop
I'm sick of lying
You make me want to tell you everything
Why though
Am I still scared
And disturbed by what's inside
When black is what I see
How could anyone see something bright
How then
Do I keep going
Get out of bed day after day
Keep smiling when it burns
Even though I want it to stop
Yet somehow
The scars fade
But the pain grows
They tell me one day you'll feel better
But truth be told I don't remember being truly happy
When will
That strong feeling of bliss
Angelic freedom that I see
In my brother and mother around me
In the world staying strong
And yes
I wished upon every star
Every 11:11
Every candle
And everything in the book
But somehow
I don't even think a genie could fix me
They've gone to the next step
My fears are coming true
But will they listen
Not really
The one parent I have
Won't give me any benefits of the doubt
I am not my father
Just because I wish to know him
Why then
Do you think it's such a crime
I tried to be strong because you guilt me about feeling bad
You tell me I'm not allowed to shed tears as you scream
Do I have to be your princess
Because you
Gave that name to your husband
And know I'm not a girl
I am your son and when will you see that
Love me for who I am and try
You know
Maybe then I'll get better
Maybe the pain will stop
When people show me I'm lovable
When I can unlearn what you taught me
The lessons
I can't ever depend on anyone
Not even the one parent I have
Or the man and women who "raised me"
