Lillian • lrh

twenty eight

I'm sorry I haven't update in forever omg

guys omg guess what happened Friday

so yesterday I had English class and my crush is in the class and my teacher was calling people up to the board to write the parts of a sentence, and she does this thing where she calls on a student to go up to the board and then that person can call on someone else to go up.

so this guy goes up then he gives the pen to my crush, then my crush sits down and my teacher asked who he wanted to go up and he looked around and he looked at mE AND HE SAID MY NAME

lmao okay so I went up to the board (and I was shaking so bad oml bc I have really bad social anxiety and it was just horrible) and so I handed the pen to my friend and I went and sat down and I looked over at him and my crush was smiling at me.

and for the rest of class he kept looking at me and smIrkIng anD idk if that's a good or bad thing but omg I was dying ok story time over

***

A few days passed and the doctors released Lily from the hospital once she was better. A few days after that was my graduation.

I lifted my hands up, clasping my necklace together. It hung right above my black dress. I hated this dress; I looked like a whale in it, but Luke said he liked it so I figured I'd wear it.

Luke walked into my room, Lily on his back.

"Are you ready to go?" Luke asked, plopping down on the bed with Lily, and coming over and standing in front of me. The young girl clambered off the bed, coming over and clinging to Luke's leg.

"Yeah," I said, not being able to fight the smile tugging at my lips.

***

We pulled up to the big house, Lily oohing at the sight. It was one of those houses you could rent for parties, which Luke had arranged for me. (an: picture of the house to the side bc I can't describe it for shït oops)

Mom parked next to the stairs, and turned and looked at Lily in the back seriously.

"Lillian will the stairs be a problem for you?" my mom asked sternly.

In my sisters condition stairs easily tired her out and caused her pain.

"No mommy, I'll be fine," Lily responded. I slide out the car and helped my sister out, grabbing a bag from the trunk and following behind my mom and Luke up the stairs.

There weren't that many stairs, but about halfway I didn't hear Lily behind me, and I turned, seeing her face contorted in pain. I dropped my stuff and rushed down the stairs, gently scooping Lily up in my arms.

She was heavy, but I sucked it up and started climbing the stairs, quickly bending down to pick up the bag, before continuing the climb. I reached the top of the stairs and hesitantly set her down.

"You can lay down," I told her as mom unlocked the door and the four of us went inside. I quickly set my bag down on the island in the kitchen, then went back to Lily and led her to the couch in the living room, instructing her to lay down.

"But I don't want to lay down. I want to party!" Lily whined, crossing her arms over her chest.

"Just lay down until everyone gets here," I told her. "I'm going to go help mommy and Luke set up. Call me if you need anything."

I stood up and went back to the kitchen, and began helping my mom and Luke set the food out.

***

"Katie!" Ashton called me over.

I excused myself from the conversation I had just been in with Calum and Luke, and walked over to Ashton. He was standing next to a pretty blonde girl, his arm around her waist and the other hand holding a red plastic cup. Beside them stood Michael and Em.

"Katie meet my girlfriend Bryana. Bryana this is Luke's girlfriend Katie," Ashton said, smiling with those dimples of his.

"Hi! It's nice to meet you!" the girl, Bryana, cried, flipping her long pretty blonde hair over her shoulder.

"Hey," I said, a little less enthusiastic than her. She was so pretty, with amazing makeup that seemed to have been done by a professional makeup artist.

Her boobs were perky, and she had a flat stomach and long slender thighs that didn't touch, and her pretty brown eyes shimmered. I awkwardly hugged myself, feeling self-conscious standing next to this girl.

Luke deserved a girl like her. Not me.

I jumped upon feeling a hand plant itself on my lower back, turning and showing a fake smile when it was Luke. Luke, Ashton, and Bryana engaged into conversation, and I excused myself, weaving through my friends and family and out to the porch.

I sighed, sitting down in the chair and staring up at the palm tree swaying beside me. I took a sip of Sprite from my red cup then set it down, staring out at the city lights.

The glass door slid open behind me and I put my happy face on, prepared to have to sit through a conversation with my aunt or something. The chair beside me pulled out and I looked over, seeing Luke plopping down into the chair beside me.

"Hey," he said.

"Hi," I said, my voice cracking.

"What are you doing out here?" Luke asked. "Em was wondering what happened to you."

"Just needed air," I shrugged.

"Don't lie to me. I saw the way you looked at Bryana. And I saw the way you covered yourself," Luke laid a hand on my leg. "You're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and I wish you'd stop comparing yourself to other girls."

I couldn't help but smile, allowing myself to only show a ghost of a smile. I looked over at him, my breath hitching at how close we were.

"Thank you," I said quietly, feeling myself begin to blush.

Luke slowly moved towards me, and I responded by moving closer to him until our noses were touching. I closed my eyes and closed the gap, feeling his soft lips press against mine.

Luke's hand slid up my arm and eventually rested on the back of my head, pulling me closer and deepening the kiss. After a few seconds I pulled away and hugged him, burying my face in his neck and inhaling his scent. He was wearing that cologne of his I liked.

And we sat there, hugging for a few seconds too long, until Luke suggested we go back inside, and I held his hand and followed behind him, back into his party.

***

I apologize for the wait. I had major writers block :/

fml walking in the wind just came on I'm crying

how was your week/weekend? school is tomorrow and ugh kms

qotd: favorite song/s off mitam?

aotd: drag me down, infinity, walking in the wind, love you goodbye and if I could fly

ouch I miss my boys so much :(

(btw I'm working on my "surprise" for 99 skinny hehe. I'm hoping to publish it around sept 20-25.)

stay positive. ily <3