hansol🍭
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It's been 5 days since I talked to Byungjoo. It's been 17 seconds since I talked to Kidoh. Kidoh and I agreed to meet somewhere, because he had some stuff to talk about. I was reluctant to go, but he kept asking and asking, so I finally just decided to meet him.
It was a mistake. As soon as I sent the text "I'm here" to Kidoh, I walked into the nice looking restaurant and started to search for his face. As soon as my eyes spotted his, my heart ached and my stomach felt like it was twisting and turning. I'm not sure how to describe it, looking at someone that you used to love so much, when they hurt you so much. It's like every second, a piece of my heart shatters.
He waves his hand at me, and smiles.
I look down and make my way towards him. I sit down across from him and start playing with my fingers.
"You look amazing." Kidoh says, with a smirk. "Stop. I didn't come here for that. You needed to tell me something?" I raise my head and look at him directly with a raised eyebrow. His smirk disappears, and he coughs awkwardly.
"I'm sorry about what I did to you. Understand that I was just a kid then-."
"You were 19. You knew right from wrong, Kidoh. Where is this conversation leading?"
Before he could answer, a waitress assisted us and asked for our orders.
"I'll have a 8 oz Steak with fries and grilled veggies, with a coke please." Kidoh orders his food, and I realize that I haven't even looked at the menu. "And for you, sir?"
I look at her blankly as I try to figure out what I want. "He'll have the three cheese macaroni with extra bacon, and with a sweet tea." Mine and Kidohs eyes connect and I mouth 'Thank you' to him. He winks at me and takes both menus and hands them to the waitress. The waitress walks off with our orders and it becomes awkward silence for a few minutes.
"Well, I wanted to ask how you've been?" Kidoh says, playing with his jacket sleeves. I crossed my arms and leaned into table. "I've been fine. What about you?" He seemed to relax, knowing that I wasn't moody anymore. "I've been missing you." I was caught off guard by his words. My mouth opened, but nothing came out.
"Hansol, I know I was stupid, but please give me another chance."
I closed my mouth, and shook my head. I looked into his pleading eyes, and all those sweet bitter memories came back to me. I felt tears brim in my eyes. "No." I choked out. "No, you can't do that." I say, trying to keep my voice calm.
"Can't do what? Listen, Hansol, I was so dumb for letting you go. I need you back in my life." After he said that, his phone went off, signaling someone was calling him. He looked hesitant to take his phone out of his pocket. I sighed deeply, already knowing where this was leading. "Aren't you going to answer that." I say, bitterly. Kidoh blinked and then took his phone out and checked the caller ID.
He pressed decline, and smiled at me. "No one important. Anyways, Hansol, I need-"
I interrupted him, "Who was that?"
He looked taken back, but then sighed. "This girl, but I swear we're not talking." I rolled my eyes, and sat up.
Kidoh grabbed my hand and stopped me. "Wait, no Hansol, I swear i'm not doing anything. Just give me another chance, baby."
I yanked my hand out of his grip and started saying thing without thing twice. "You can't just fucking do this, Kidoh! You used me, lied to me, and broke me. You want a second chance? Really? I tried to text you so many fucking times and all you did was say you wanted to be alone. I was so in love with you, that it broke me. I couldn't even fucking function right. All that was on my mind was you, and you literally didn't even give a damn. And now that I'm actually able to go a week without crying about you, you want me to forgive you and have us go back to the way we were? No. Sorry for not being able to give you another chance. Have fun with the bill and your little whore."
I walked away from his speechless face. I walked away from the table, from the restaurant, from my ex lover, and from my broken heart.
I felt my phone buzz as soon as I got in my car.
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DaddyBjoo: I know I love you.
Butterfly930615: come over in 30 minutes.
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Woah. Haha.
Pretty intense ¿
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