Ang pag-ibig ay hindi puro tamis..nakakaumay kaya yun at lalanggamin kayo. Kaya kailangan ng iba iba flavor. Sourcream, cheese...joke..fries lang?!
Kailangan ang spices at ang pinaka maanghang ay ang mommy ni Matt. Mahilig kaya ako sa maanghang! Kayo ba? 😂😂
Seriously, loka-loka talaga ako eh. I am seriously funny too. I laugh to easily even at the stupidest jokes, but this time I can't even think of a funny thing to ease this pain...this feeling of being unaccepted.
Hindi kasi lahat ng tao ay magugustuhan tayo. That's a fact. Pero ang hindi ka magustuhan ng nanay ng taong mahal mo ay napakasakit. Para sa akin this is devastating.
One more thing, I'm not in the mood magpakumbaba this time.
Sometimes, I am thinking maybe I should do everything for Matt's mom to like me. However, when I think again, why should I do everything anyway? I don't need their money, I don't need to love someone who is not capable of fighting for me.
I know Matt is doing everything just to please his mom. He is even planning to bring me to one of their family dinners. Pero ayoko pa. The moment na sinagot ko siya kinukulit na niya ako to meet his family. Pero hindi naman ako atat diba? Hindi pa naman ako mag-aasawa. I want us to take our time first, to know each other better and make sure that we really are a perfect fit for each other.
For the last six months, marami na rin akong alam tungkol sa kanya, at unti unti nakikilala ko na siya. Pero I felt like it's not enough.
Kasi sabi nga nila kahit mag-asawa na kayo parang getting to know each other pa rin. So it is important that what you feel for each other is true love, because true love is so strong. It's too strong na kapag yun ang pundasyon niyo walang makakatibag sa inyo.
Pero para matagpuan mo ang true love mo ang alam ko marami ka pang dapat pagdaanan. Some bittersweet experiences that will teach you life lessons so that if you got to meet your true love kaya mo ng ipaglaban.
This time, sa relationship namin ni Matt. It's like everything happens so fast that I am unprepared.
I try to recollect my memories and ponder about it. I searched through my deepest feelings, and I cannot find it in my heart to fight for this love. I think it's not the right time to do it.
Pero I won't break up with him yet. We have to talk about things to work it out.
It's been a month since I met his mom but I haven't told Matt about it. Maybe, it's time that I tell him.
It was one sunday morning, it's always a sundate for us.
It was a beautiful day in March and the sun shines so bright I can see it smile at us.
We went for a run that morning, when we stopped and sat on a bench I tried to talk to him about it.
"Hmm..mine I have something to tell you..but promise me you'll never get angry. Okay?" I told him sweetly resting my head on his shoulders.
He looked down on me and looked me in the eyes. Gosh! Para akong matutunaw. Kinikilig pa rin ako everytime he looked at me like that. Napangisi ako at napansin niya. He pinched my nose.
"Oh sure sweetie..what is it? Promise I won't." he said smiling while raising his right hand then touched my face.
"You sure?" as I smiled sweetly.
"So sure sweetie! Ang kulit!" he said giggling while trying to kiss me but I twist my face away.
"Ugh anu ba Matt! Gosh andaming tao oh!" angal ko while looking at him disappointed.
BINABASA MO ANG
ANG DIARY NG SINGLE
RomanceIt is not always about love. How much you love the person or how much you yearn to be loved. Life is not a bed of rose petals. It is a bed of roses with thorns. You'll never know when you get the chance to fall inlove and that love to be returned...
