Chrysalis (Book 1.5 in the Wolfen Brethren Series)

Metamorphosis

18 Year's old
Januar

We were leaving. We had decided and we were going to do it. Neema was much better now, I wasn't sure what had been wrong with her but there was this glow about her. She was radiant and strong. She didn't look as if she had 4 young children and so I knew now was the time to leave. She was more than coping.

Khan stayed home a lot more now, especially as his brother Ryan seemed to be acting as a representative for Him. Things were getting really good for them and so I knew it was my time.

My clothes and books were packed and Eliza's mother and mate had been informed. They had readied adjoining rooms for us in the compound and most of our stuff was there already. I only kept one bag with me, it held all my treasures. Things that I held dear to my heart.

Khan had reluctantly made travel arrangements for us, even though he was less than happy that I was leaving. None of them were happy. Neema was bitter but she understood why I needed to leave. She wasn't happy but she was accepting.

Caillum didn't mind as such, he was too caught up in Lian and her training to give my leaving much thought. Jana on the other hand was gutted. My heart hurt just thinking about her crestfallen face. I felt as if I had betrayed her.

Tears had cascaded down her golden face and then her eyes had shuttered. She hadn't spoken to me since. I had one day left and then I would be gone and my favourite girl wasn't speaking to me. It hurt, physically crippled me. I knew that Jana would struggle when I was gone and it played on my mind.

There was a moment when I thought I would stay but I knew that if I didn't leave, then I never would. So I made that decision, Eliza needed me and for once I would put myself first. It was one of the hardest choices to make but once I had decided, there was a peace in my heart. I was moving on.

I had one day left until I left and I was where I wanted to be most. Me and Neema sat outside on a bench watching the twins play. Baby Micah was swaddled in his cart and Jana sulked under a tree, refusing to play or look at me. The cart was like a basket but had these small wheels so she could move him around with her. It was a weird contraption and quite inconvenient when she needed to move up and down the stairs but for now it worked.

"So today is your last day" stated Neema, her light brown eyes peering at me.

Her gaze was so intense I had to look away, my gaze dropped to my lap as I picked at the leg of my trouser. "Yeah"

"We're going to miss you so much" she heaved. She had been plying me with guilt since the moment I had told her I was leaving. There was nothing she wouldn't say to keep me with her. I couldn't give her any reason to think I would change my mind.

My head tilted back up as I met her gaze with mine, I was full of conviction and I wouldn't hide it.

"I'm going to miss you guys too but it's just something I need to do." I shrugged my shoulders because there was nothing I could really say or do that would appease her and still suit me.

"Is it- because of Carson?"

"Because I don't think he will be back for a while." She had my attention now, I didn't want to make it so obvious but I was really interested in what she had to say.

Carson hadn't been around for quite a few weeks. As soon as Neema had improved he had left and he hadn't returned. I was glad because there had been no awkward meetings in the library or the compound. I had definitely felt his absence but it was welcomed. I no longer had the fear of seeing him, his mate or his newborn.

Though no news about his child had been relayed, I knew that Nelly must have had the baby by now.

"He's going through a lot and I'm not sure if his baby-" she grimaced and I could see tears gathering in her eyes "I don't think the baby made it full term."