Please Don't Leave...(Boku No Hero Academy Fanfic)

Chapter 9

Authors note- I'll just skip the whole 10 months and to the test that you have to do to get into the high school :v

*Shizuku's POV*

These last 10 months have been hell for me.

I decided not to go training anymore with midoriya and All Might after the whole indecent.... And because they didn't help stop the fight. Me and shadow haven't talked since, I wonder how she is doing since she's my quirk and all. I twirled a shadow on my finger but I saw no face on it this time.. You can usually see an expression on them or shadow looking at me.

But she's not there.

I guess I'm all alone now. Well, the exam or test thingy to go into U.A. academy is in a few days so my life won't be as boring for the moment.  I frowned slightly and turned the tv on. I need to be more active... I've gained quite a few pounds these past few pounds. I've gained, what? Seven pounds I think... It may not be that much for other people but seven pounds is like I'm stuffing up for hibernation or something. What I'm saying is that I hardly gain any pounds.

Maybe gaining pounds won't be so bad.. How much do I weigh again? What, 80 pounds or something? So I'm almost 90 pounds... Maybe I am becoming fat or something... Such a bummer. Maybe I'll just train by myself sometime. That probably won't happen unless I get gym class again to be honest with you.

After I turned the tv on I skimmered through channels upon channels until I got to animal planet. I love animals. I'll never get a pet because I know I'll probably kill it or something confusing will happen. I still like animals though so I'll admire them from a distance.

And that's why I watch animal planet.

One time when I was watching tv at my parents house I was watching animal planet and I cried.. The lioness abandoned it's cub after a new male lion took over and attacked the cub since it wasn't his child.. It didn't make it. 

The other cub followed her mom but was stampeded by a buffalo and it's legs where broken while the mom was hunting... The lioness also left the cub and moved on. It was so sad..

But that's how life works.

Watching the tv screen blankly for hours really damages your eyes. It doesn't matter though. What time is it? I looked down to my lap and turned on my phone too see the time.

3:49 in the morning.

Was I really watching tv for that long? I started watching at like, 9pm. Time fly's by fast I guess...

I'll just keep watching since it's too late to go to sleep.

*Timeskip to afternoon* 

 Wow, I really did stay up all night. How long has it been since I went to sleep? This is the 3rd day I think.. I only sleep for about 2 hours but that's enough for me. That's how I usually sleep now. I don't care how I look. I don't care about the bags under my eyes. I don't care if people stare at me.

I don't care.

Not caring is better than being hurt.

I wonder how my parents are doing? Do they miss me? How is my little brother rin doing? How old will be be now? Won't he be 4 to 5 years old now? I hope they give him a normal life. It showed in there eyes and actions that they favored him over me. The least they could do was actually be nice to him. That's the only thing I want to happen for my little brother.

I don't expect many good things to happen to me in life. Or at all to be honest. The only thing I want is for people not to suffer. Which means I don't want to suffer like I did when I lived there. I'm not favoring him or anything.

Turning the tv off gradually I sat up and went to the kitchen blindly since the tv was off. Even if it is in the evening, it will always be dark in my house. I like it that way. Plus, no bills for me if I keep this up. It doesn't matter to me if I can't see in the dark. I have my whole house mapped out in my mind so I can walk around the dark if I want too.

Don't get me wrong, I make it pitch black in my house here for a purpose. I keep my curtains closed at all times to make it dark. I like the dark better than the blinding light.

After walking into the kitchen I opened the fridge and grabbed some jelly. Putting it on the counter I opened my food cupboard and grabbed the peanut butter and set it on the table. Then, grabbing a butter knife and two slices of bread I made a pb and j. If you don't know what that means then you're hopeless.

Taking the first bite of the sandwich ended quickly and before you know it, it was already gone... Sadly. 

Change of subject, I only have 2 days until the test thingy don't I? It's kind of exciting to think about what might happen when we take the test. What if I meet midoriya? Would I just ignore him or what? We'll just have to find out won't we? Or not.. I don't want to find out to be honest. I was just going with the flow, ya know? No? Okay then..

Again, change of subject. I wonder what exactly we have to do for the exams? I bet it's just gonna be something cliche like, "Destroy all the villains to win." Instead of testing our ability's like a fitness test or something (Which I would probably fail lmao).

Why can't we just go to school peacefully? Was anything ever peaceful? No. Okay then. I should stop talking to myself and focus more on the future god dammit.......

What am I kidding, I'm probably gonna just watch tv until the day comes and have all nighters until I pass out.

Such a healthy life I'm living, am I right?

I was being sarcastic btw.

Authors note- I was bored today and wrote this :v I hope you guys like it lol. See you guys in the next chapter c: