Don't You Dare Read This

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I went to my dads house today and it happened again.

I thought i could be strong and fight back but i couldnt and it wasnt the same guy it was my dads wifes older brother. I feel icky i took at least 2 showers already i still feel the guilt but this time it was quick. Im just scared ill get pregnant because he left his you know in the you know and omg its just i dont know. My mom dropped me off after school and my dad had 5 minutes to get back and my dads wifes older brother was there. I guess rapists run in the family or something because its happened twice and ryan (the one who rapped me the 1st time) didnt recall raping me after i told him. What cowards and my dads wife it was ovious she didnt like me. So apperantly she was my moms worst enemy in highschool because my mom was "popular" and she wasnt and even though my mom never did anything to her she still started stuff and im just caught in the cross fire. So they didnt like eachother and when my mom was pregnant with me she tried to get my dad to get her pregnant too so she could compete with me and my mom. I got it all wrong with my dad hes not a fuckboy hes just stupid. And he told me hes been trying to get devorced to his wife and go back to my mom but his wife wont let him. That she "loves" him but i could tell hes just her little slave boy. Its just i don't know ill probably not write in a few days because i just feel so icky with all this situation now
God.