The Truth Behind The Smiles

I love you like a lovesong

Months passed since the moment me and Lauren realised we wanted eachother, it kind of made sense that we never fancied anybody else as the person we both wanted was right infront of us the whole time.

We never made our relationship official, we wasn't actually together but what we had was undeniably special. We didn't want to label our relationship in fear of it been ruined, we was happy how we was. Everybody knew about us tho, everyone knew we was a thing and strangely we never got any negative comments about it, even our families knew and it shocked me the most that they was fine about it.

I couldn't deny that i had fallen for Lauren, she couldn't deny that she had fallen for me either, i love her. I love her so fucking much and she feels the same i can see it everyday in the things she says to me and the way she treats me. What we had was beautiful and i never ever wanted it to change. She was my bestfiend and my girl and getting to share something so special with sombody who i have grown up with brought me so much happiness.

Anyway, Like i said before Lauren was so passionate about singing and i supported her endlessly, her voice was just as beautiful as her and it made me shiver when she sang to me. I knew this is what Lauren always wanted to do, so i decided it was time i did something about it. I surprised her with an application form for the xfactor 2012, and to my relief she was absolutely thrilled about it!

A couple of months after sending off the audition Lauren received a date for her audition (she prior had attended the small booth audition and was accepted to sing infront of the famous xfactor judges). She was so fucking excited and it filled me with happiness.

We got ready that morning and headed down to the arena where the audition would take place, all her family was with us and we stood in the wings nervously waiting as my girl walked confidently onto the stage. I wasn't at all surprised when she got 4 yes's. She was amazing no doubt about it.

We arrived home after the eventful day/night and threw ourselfs onto her bed. I decided to stay at hers that night. She pulled me closely and kissed the tip of my nose, thank you for everything baby she smiled softly. Pride filled my heart as i stared into her eyes. "Just remember me when your in the big time" i smirked. "You'll be by my side thru it all baby i promise" she said lovingly as she laid her head onto my chest and slowly drifted off to sleep.

Oh how i wish those words would of come true, we had no idea what we was in for.