The Truth Behind The Smiles

Teenage Dreams

Then first couple of years of high school seemed to go so fast, before i knew it we was 14 and in year 9 but still inseperable.
We had other friends too, Lauren was really popular and people wasn't really interested in me. I didn't mind tho because she reassured me that i was her bestfriend and she only really cared about me. Lauren had a lot of confidence where as i was alot more reserved.

Before we knew it it was the summer holidays again, most of the girls we knew was out meeting boys and hooking up (crazy at 15, i know) but me and Lauren spent everyday together like usual. Neither of us had ever had a boyfriend and we quite frankly wasn't interested in having one. But something this year had changed and this is where it all began.

I had noticed myself looking at Lauren in a different light, I didn't really understand what was going on but i kind of felt attracted to her which was crazy, she's my bestfriend i couldn't think like that!
One night in the holidays i stayed over at hers, we sat in her bed with her laptop set onto her lap browsing thru facebook. She had a lot of people from school as friends on there so we was just been nosey. We came across a girls profile called Beth who was the year above us at school, she was a lesbian.

After browsing for a while she set her laptop to the side and laid down beside me, i wonder what it would be like she said softly, you know been in a relationship, kissing somebody and just been in love in general. I shook my head lightly thinking about what it would be like, i snapped myself out of my thoughts considering it was Lauren i was thinking of in that way. I was so confused to why i was thinking of her like that, she's my bestfriend i shouldn't be thinking like this!

Hey can we try something, she stared at me with a look of innocence in her eyes yet a small smirk tugged her lips.
S s sure i mumbled wondering what she was thinking. We kept our eyes locked as she pressed her hand against mine and intertwined our fingers, she leaned towards me slowly her eyes occasionally glancing at my lips back up to my eyes. She softly grazed her lips against mine before pulling away slightly and whispering 'are you sure your ok with this' i nodded slightly, a strange feeling took over my body as she laid me on the bed, leaning slightly over me she lowered herself onto me and kissed me gently. It seemed to go on forever, slow soft pecks as she held my hand tightly with one hand and stroked the side of my neck with the other. I was enjoying this way more than i should of been so i rested my hand on the back of her neck and pulled her tightly into me so i was able to control the kiss and deepen it a little. She opened her eyes and smirked against my lips, stroking my neck so lovingly as she did what she knew i wanted and opened her mouth slightly allowing me to slip my tongue in and slowly but passionately deepen the kiss. We carried on for what seemed like hours, making out slowly teasing eachother by pulling away and holding back slightly making the other one almost beg for the contact again.

After the steamy make out session we both lay on her bed staring at the ceiling, our fingers still locked together. Why did something that should of felt so wrong, feel so right?

She rolled onto her side and pulled me onto mine, still holding my hand caressing my cheek with the other. I had never seen this look in her eyes she was looking at me like i was the only person in the world. Fuck im so confused she mumbled under her breath, her eyes never leaving mine. Whats wrong i said softly, worried that she was going to regret what had just happened. I had been feeling this strange feeling when we was around eachother but to Lauren all we was bestfiends, is it wrong to say i kind of wanted to be more than that? "I just dont understand" she began slowly "i mean nothing against you your my bestest friend and im glad we got to share our first kiss together but why did it feel so right? Like i really liked it and i didnt want it to end but y-your a girl and my friend and i think i like you, i really fucking like you" her face burned bright red as she looked down instantly almost embarrassed by what she had just said. The strange feeling was back talking over my whole body, i felt the world fall off my shoulders as i realised the girl i wanted felt the same, i liked my bestfriend and she liked me; no biggie right?..

I didnt want to waste anther moment so i leaned over slightly brushing my lips against her ear "i really fucking like you too, i have done for a while" i said nervously before leaning back towards her lips and slamming mine onto hers, alot more roughly than the previous time.
This feeling was incredible, magical.