The Truth Behind The Smiles

"Camren"

What the fuck is going on!? I screamed at her as soon as she answered the phone. "Lucy its not what you think i promise, out fans have wild imaginations and there taking things way too far" i stayed silent my body burning with anger "im sorry lucy, i havent been intouch i just" "you just fucking what i shouted forgot i exsited?" "She began to cry and i felt a pain in my chest as i heard her sob "listen i have to be honest with you" she began sobbing "me and Camila got drunk last week one thing led to another and we slept together" my heart hit the pit of my stomach i ended the call instantly and collapsed to the ground.

I laid there sobbing for hours until my phone went off i reached over to see a long text off Lauren reading "please let me explain. We was drunk and it meant nothing. Your the love of my life and the only reason i put us on a break is to make it easier for us until i got home but i realise that was a mistake. I love you Lucy, she means nothing to me ignore the headlines. I want you an only you, call me pleas we need to sort this out my heart is breaking. I love you x"

I didn't understand how she could act like it was nothing! She had sex with another girl after saying she wants us to go on a break, what the fuck was i meant to think? I felt so hurt and worthless, how could she do this to me? Its like shes forgotten im the fucking reason shes there living her dream, i got her that form and now all i can do is fucking regret it. I was so angry.

I never Text Lauren after that, she had text me a few times and even tho it killed me i ignored it. I wanted to hurt her how she had hurt me, i became kind of wreckless. I got drunk alot, smoked weed now and again and i even began to sleep around. It felt so wrong and i knew it was wrong but it was an escape route and my way of dealing with the pain. Everytime i went on social media i seen #Camren trending and it hurt more each tweet i read. "Camren are clearly made for eachother" "you can see how happy camren make eachother" etc.

I slammed my laptop closed and walked outside, i lit my joint and sat down. Over thinking, my mind filled with anger and my heart filled with pain. I stopped watching the show each week all it brought me was more pain and i definitely had enough of that.