i. you say you love her, you leave messages on her phone every minute of everyday. you stop to stare at her a little longer and immediately turn away once she catches your gaze. you fall for her pretty brown eyes and petit physique. you say you're in love.
ii. you build up your courage and decide to tell her you like her. your heart races and every nerve in your body is lit with excitement. you walk up to her and ask for a second to talk. she says yes and your head runs wild with uncertainty and finally you tell her.
iii. it's been a week now, and you claim to have fallen in love. you claim that no one can tear you apart. it's fate. the stars were finally aligned and it's as if the heavens were giving you a sign. you tell her she's beautiful everyday and you call her day and night. you've never been happier.
iv. one month now, but you seem to have fallen apart. your romance was drifting away like how the tide steals anything that comes near it. you're falling apart. she is too. you both know but you don't want to admit it to yourselves, so you put on a smile.
v. two months now, you've caught yourself to have fallen out of love. can it be? for two people predestined by the universe to have such an abrupt end? it all seemed crazy but you denied it.
vi. three months, now you both know it's time. you've learned that there wasn't anything between you anymore. all but a string of infatuation and misconception. so you decide to end.
vii. you're heartbroken. you've lost her. you've lost yourself. your happiness was solely reliant on that one girl and now she's gone.
viii. a week later, you see her with someone new. your heart sinks into your chest and a sour taste tingles in your mouth. but you turn around and walk away.
ix. two weeks later, you've moved on. you realize that you're better off without her and it was just an act of gleeful ignorance.
x. and you do it all again.
YOU ARE READING
for him.
Poesíayou filled me with love and comfort but i was too blind to realize that i was already drowning and the boy that i'd trusted was the one holding me underwater. so then i learned to never trust your heart into the hands of another.
