Suddenly...Gone

Chapter 36

It was a good thing that Daryl was used to surviving on very little sleep, as he had a big day ahead of him and the few hours of sleep he managed to get would have to do. Hopefully, he could catch a quick nap during the day. Twenty minutes was all he needed to reenergize.

The sun had come up just a little while ago, so the room was bathed in a soft sunlight. Emma was still sound asleep with her head on his chest, the sound of her gentle breathing was music to his ears. He rubbed her back with his hand as he remembered last night.

The crazy chemistry they had that would turn into a full-blown explosion when they were together hadn't dulled with the years they spent apart if anything it intensified and last night was proof of that. It could have been that he hadn't had sex since the day he left Emma to do that overnight job with Merle. Or it could be that she turned him on like no woman he had ever met, but each time their bodies joined last night it seemed their climaxes were stronger and stronger if that was all possible.

Just thinking about her lying naked in his arms right now got him hard again. Maybe, if he woke her up, they'd have time to have sex again before he needed to meet up with Rick. The more he thought about himself inside of her again, the harder he got until he didn't have a choice anymore. He was waking Emma up.

Just as Daryl was about to coax her awake by playing with her breast, he had a sobering thought, and with that, he completely lost his erection. They hadn't used any protection last night. Not the first, second or third time he came inside of her. Fuck.

They had never used condoms before because Emma had been on the pill. They didn't need to, but there was no way she was still on the pill now.

Daryl rested the back of his hand on his forehead as dozens of questions flew through his head. What if she got pregnant? What would they do? What did he know about being a father? How could he even be a good one, when what he had experienced growing up was shit? What if she died like Lori or if she lost the baby like Maggie? They had sorta talked about kids, but this was reality slamming right into him

"Fuck!" he growled.

Emma had always loved the raspiness of Daryl's voice. The cigarettes he smoked didn't help, but he could send tingles throughout her body by just saying a few words. He did with just that one.

"I'm game," she said looking up at him with sleepy eyes.

"What?" Daryl asked her. He was confused.

Emma giggled, "You said Fuck so I said I'm game." Her hand moved to rest on his thigh as her fingers gently caressed his leg.

"That was more of an 'Oh fuck,' then a 'Let's fuck,'" he told her kissing the top of her head. "We didn't use a condom last night."

Emma didn't say anything as the implications of what Daryl said hit her. She hadn't given any thought at all about using protection. God, she was so used to them never using anything, because she was on the pill, that she never gave a single thought last night...or just now. This was definitely an 'Oh Fuck' moment.

"How did we not even think about that?" she asked him "What if...?"

"Yeah what if."

Emma didn't say anything for a little while. The world now was a whole lot of different than when they lived together. She and Daryl had never talked seriously about having kids, they were too busy having fun with just themselves. She didn't even know if he had ever wanted children. She had, but times were different now.

"Don't get me wrong, Daryl. I love you more than anything and having a baby with you would have been incredible, but now? I don't know if I want a baby ...now...in the middle if this craziness," she told him. Emma had always dreamt about having babies. She wanted to be able to show them the love that she never had a child. But now? Could she bring a child into the world now?