Allison's POV
It had been a while since the last time I was at a party like this; a lot of familiar and unfamiliar people with red cups in their hands while playing drinking games and smoking cigarettes. Yep, it was exactly like the good old days, except this time I choosed to be here and not with anyone of the old squad but with Sam who had been so kind and understanding to me. Speaking of kind and understanding it was Johnson's party but I couldn't find him that easily. It was more crowded than the parties in my memories. Eventually I finally found him talking with some guy and I could only hope that it wasn't Matt. When Johnson moved from his seat I could see the guy's face and luckily for me it wasn't Matt but he was around somwhere and so was Nicole, I knew they were.
"Allison!" Johnson got up excitedly. "You made it!" First he ignored Sam who was standing beside me but the happy expression on his face changed when he saw Sam. "And you brought everyone's favorite party crasher with you." He sarcastically smiled.
"Don't half of the people here crash?" Sam said to him.
Johnson kept smiling. "You're on my black list of party crasher's."
There fell a short silence. After months of asking Johnson why he dislikes Sam so much I still didn't get proper answer. Johnson would just say it's the way Sam is but I actually got to know him and I couldn't find anything what's not to like about him. They got into a fight once that's for sure, I just didn't know why. Yet.
"I see Jc over there I'm gonna say hi, I'll leave you two to it." He said to us and disappeared in only a few seconds.
When he was completely out of the picture I gave Johnson the look. The you-were-extra-mean-to-Sam-again look.
"What?" He asked and I raised my eyebrow. "Oh come on, I went easy on him."
"Yea but I still want to know why you hate—" I didn't finish my sentence, I couldn't even remember it at that moment because I saw after over a month one of the two people who betrayed me. It was Matt. He hadn't changed a bit, still the same brown eyes and expression on his face but the strange thing was he was at a party and he was sober. Maybe he had changed on the inside, not that it was an excuse for his actions but a person can change a lot in just a couple months. I never wanted to have anything to do with him anymore but I couldn't help but wondering if he'd changed or if he'd kissed other girls since we broke up. I know I shouldn't have cared but deep inside I hoped he didn't kiss other girls.
Johnson noticed who I was staring at and must've read my mind.
"He didn't get drunk at any party since you two broke up." He answered the unasked question.
"How come?"
"He said, and I quote, it's not like Allison will forgive me if I get drunk so what's the point?"
"Right he is." I said and took a sip from Johnson's cup. Johnson didn't respond, he always looked like he knew what to say but it was quiet and I could tell why. "I know this has been difficult for you Johnson, I really wish things were different too."
"There have been tougher days." He grabbed his cup back and drank the last sip. "No time to be sad, it's a party! Enjoy it, get drunk! That's what you're here for right?"
Was I? I could get waisted if I wanted to but the memory of my first and last time I got drunk was something I rather do not remember. I only got drunk to prove Matt that I wasn't the girl he thought I was, even though I'm exactly that girl, and ended sharing a bed with him which I hated myself for.
If I got drunk I could end up exactly like that again because we were both there still in an unsettled situation. No matter how much I avoided him it still felt like we weren't done with each other and it felt more like I was avoiding the unsolved situation instead of him. Same goes for Nicole who I hadn't seen yet. In the meanwhile I still tried to decide what to do; I couldn't stay sober the rest of my life because of one thing what happened with Matt almost a year ago. And even if I ended up being in that exact situation I was back then it didn't have to be with Matt. Maybe if I was lucky, even with Sam. (shook) Then it was settled and I filled a red cup with alcohol.
