Kei's POV
"So, she went to spend the trip with All Time Low after that to get some space, making Andy and Jinxx be even more suspicious, so Jake starts arguing with them, trying to get some sense into their heads. It was getting kind of intense, so finally Jake just went back to sleep. He does that sometimes, just tries to sleep off his anger." CC explained the situation as we walked to wherever he had planned for us to go. "So, Kei gets back, and Ash goes to wake up Jake and have her say hi and stuff.
"Then Jake saw Kei's new cuts, and literally started screaming at the others, and that's when I jumped in and dragged her off." I froze in place as he mentioned the still fresh cuts on my arms. Alex, CC, and Ash knew, but no one else did. CC turned back to me. "Kei, what's wr-" He cut himself off as he realized what he had just said. "Oh.. Kei, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have mentioned that!"
I found myself not mad at all, though. "It's okay. I'm not mad." I mumbled. I was scared though. I don't think Austin ever actually knew I cut. I took an involuntary step backward as I looked from face to face, trying to decipher what everyone thought of it.
Tony, Oli, and Alex just looked sad to see that I went back to that. They already knew, so I knew they wouldn't judge me or hate me. I dared to look up at Austin, afraid of his reaction.
He looked at me and offered me a small smile-- the same one he had on when he found out about my former eating habits. He walked over and gave me a hug. "Don't be scared. I don't hate you. I promise."
I smiled, although tears were building in my eyes. "Thank you.."
"Oh my gosh I almost forgot one!!!" CC suddenly shouted. I looked at him confused as he took off running, and knocked on another bus's door. Me and the guys walked closer to see him talking to Kellin. Oh yeah.. I guess that would make sense, since he helped me with what happened...
CC led Kellin over to our group, which suddenly made me wonder who all here knew. Austin did for sure, he helped when the guys came back. Tony knew because he was the one who noticed I was gone too long. I hadn't really thought about that night since the police were called on the guys, until now.
Suddenly, my mind flashed with images of my two attackers, what they did to me. It was as if I was reliving the experience. My hands flew up to the sides of my head and I grabbed at my hair, trying to make the images stop. I let out a cry, and crumpled to the ground, tears quickly falling off my face.
I was only half aware of various voices calling out my name, and asking questions. "What's going on with her?!"
"Is it some sort of panic attack?"
"What triggered it?!"
"Kei!!" Ashley's voice prodded through the images. "Kei, come on. Come back to us, come on!" I felt arms wrap around me, but my mind didn't connect that to the voice desparately trying to help. Instead, it connected the feeling to the images, and I let out another scream, and struggled.
"No please!! Please don't hurt me, please, please!!" I cried. What was happening?!
The hands quickly disappeared. "Kei, I'm not going to hurt you. Come on... It's not happening, it's just a flashback. You're not going through that again." Ash's calm voice persisted in trying to break through my thoughts. I felt a hand gently lay itself on my shoulder, and this time, I attempted to connect it to the soothing voice. "Come on, Kei. I'm here. I won't let it happen again, I promise."
Finally, my head began to clear. I opened my tear-stained eyes, and looked up at Ash. He had tears in his eyes, and seeing that broke my heart. "A-Ash.. I'm sorry. I don't know why I freaked like that."
