love hurts

i try to please him

then he started to kiss me again. started to leave small trail of kisses on my neon ck. then he was taking his shirt off showing off his six pack and the small tattoo on his left breast. i started to roam my hands all over him.

"i love you kace" devlin said

"i love you too babe" i replied.

he started to take my shirt off and i let him. he caught my lips again with his and slowly left my lips slowly moving towards my neck,moving all the way down to my breast,stopping there and then started to take my bra off but i stopped him.

"whats the matter?" he asked

"nothing,i just don't think am ready to go that far with you yet"i replied.

"wha-what are you talking about? we've been together for over 4 months and you're telling me you dont think your ready." he said through gritted

"I just think we're going too fast thats all"i said

"Four months and you think we're going too fast." He said looking at me like am stupid. "This isn't about going too fast, it's about your lil friend. What's his name? Eric? It's about him. "

"Now you're jumping to conclusions. Eric is my best friend. We've been best friend s for how long I can remember. It's not even like that. " I told him

"Whatever you say." He said in a snobby tone.

"are you accusing me of having feelings for him?" I questioned

"I never said that."He said

"Well it sounded like you were."I snapped.

"Don't get all attitudey with me" he said in a warning tone. A tone been I've trying to avoid since the last time he hit me.

"I think you should leave, it's getting late and am tired. " I said not looking at him.

He looked at me for what felt like forever before he got up and left without a single word.

I sighed deeply trying to figure out why I love this dude so much when he can't even trust me.

as soon I was heading up the stairs I heard the door pulling. Good thing I locked it cause this fool ain't boutta be coming back in here. The door kept trying to open, so I figured if I ignore it he'll stop. Only It wasn't him, it was Eric. I went to go open the door and saw a smiling Eric and a smiling Kevin at ma door. I couldn't help but smiled too.

"Aww ma two besties came to check up on me? Thats so sweet" I said in the voice I use to make when we were kids that use to make them look at me, and then look at each other then back at me again.

"You didn't change one bit and Ya we came to check up on you. " they said in unison like they always do.

"Thanks, but there wasn't a need for that, am fine". I lied.

Both of them were just staring at me, like they do when they know am lying.

"Whatch you lying for, we both know you and that no good boy friend a your s just had a fight. " said Kevin.

"Don't call him that, and we weren't fighting. We just had an argument that's all."

"Call it what you want is the same thing. And when we saw him, he wasn't looking so pleasant neither were you when you opened the door. "Said Eric

"So man up, and enlighten us on why both a yall looked like if he didn't leave, yall would have a dog fight."

might as well I tell them since they're looking at me expectantly,

So after telling them the whole story, I expected these niggas to be mad. The niggas busted out laughing. Laughing as in rolling on the floor, tears streaming down their faces.

"Gee Thanks for the support guys. I feel much better. " I said in a sarcastic tone while heading for my room. They were laughing so hard they didn't realize I left.

I went in my room and closed the door, jumped in my bed and started bawling ma eyes out, wondering what I did wrong for him to not trust me and now the two people I thought would have my back and defend me are in my living room laughing at me.

I heard foot steps coming up the stairs, so I decided I wasn't in the mood to talk to those two so I went under the covers and put the sheet over ma head.

I heard a soft nock on the door but I didn't answer it. Those two only nock when they're feeling guilty about something. They kept knocking and I kept ignoring.

"Kay, we're sorry. We didn't mean to laugh. " I ignored them still.

"Come on Kay can you please open up so we could talk." Eric said.

I got outta bed and went to the door and said " you wanna talk then lets talk. You left us here and didnt write us. You were always the one that had ma back both of you.now your back, both a yall show up at ma door saying yall came to check up on me.i told yall everything that happened and yall laughed right to ma face. I told yall because yall always had a way of cheering me up, but all yall did was make it worst.so u wanna talk well talk to that. Both of you just leave me alone. Since I cant tell my two besties anything anymore, I'll just deal with this myself." And with that said, I slammed the door in both their faces and started crying all over again.

I didnt hear them leave, but I was too busy crying to care. Crying and crying I fell asleep. Hours past and I felt my stomach growling.i was hungry. I got up, looked at the clock that read 10:37. I shrugged got off the bed and stretched.i came out the room to go to the bathroom. When I got out I smelled food.

I didnt remember cookin. Well it didnt matter, am hungry so am boutta go bust it up. When I got downstairs to the kitchen, I saw the two persons I didnt really wanna see right now. Eric and kevin.

I went into the kitchen, and walked right past both of em and didnt say a word. I went in the fridge to get something and the bitch was empty. I forgot to go food shopping. My stomach growled so loud from the food smell.

I was about to go back to my room when both of them blocked my way.i hated it when they did this.

"Move out ma way."I said

"No, not until you let us apologize. "Said Kevin.

I didn't answer, I just stood there looking, but not at them. Kevin used his hands to make me look at him.

"Kay kay look am really sorry.i know you trusted me and everything, but honestly I wasnt laughing at you.you know I cant stand that boy, so when you told me everything, I remember the way he lookee when we were coming so I started to laugh, and maybe eric picked it up too so we started laughing. Kay am soo sorry of I hurt your feelings, you know we love you and wont do anything to hurt you. You forgive us cause I cant go another minute with you being mad at us" he said.

you know what I realize, any time these two g et into trouble together, one of them apologize s for both of em.

They were just staring at me, giving me d puppy dog looks that would always work on me. And with that I said yes pulling them in for a group hug.

"Now move, " I said pushing them both aside"am hungry".