the room looked empty when i looked back at it before i left. this all felt surreal. i was unsure if this was real or not. i trudge away from my room, fern gripping my arm to guide where i was going.
'we're going back to elizabeths office to sign a few more things, okay?' fern spoke, and i nodded in response. people passed me by, none noticing, and i remembered why i should be happy to leave here.
fern pushed me gently into the office, but we were in a different room, with sofas and coffee tables. i looked at fern questioningly. 'this is a different office, it's closer to the exit.'
on the couches in front of me were Elizabeth, a person with a clipboard, and harry. there was a space for who i guessed was fern, and an armchair for me. i sat down immediately.
'sunny?' Elizabeth spoke up, i looked at her. they all looked at me concerned.
'sorry, yeah?' i shook my head, and diverted my eyes to her.
'your social worker, luana has some paperwork for you. you just have to sign your name and then your good to go. your prescription and-'
'okay.' i put my hand out for the clipboards. i began to sign my name in any spaces blank, and i overheard them speak.
'i don't think she is fit to find her own way home.'
'doesn't she have a brother?'
'yes, but he said he wasn't available to collect her.'
'and is there any other relatives?'
'no, not that we were made aware of.'
'i can drop her home.'
'oh i don't think that's necessary, harry.'
'well, who else will bring her home? i don't have any duties for the rest of today, i'll just bring her home and help her settle in and then come back.'
somebody sighed. 'will she be okay with that?'
i look up. 'will i be okay with what?' i tilt my head to the side.
'harry here, is going to bring you home. are you alright with that?'
i frown and look at harry who immediately flashes a very put on big smile. 'can i not find my own way home?'
'no, it's not safe.' harry frowns.
'okay.'
elizabeth looked between the two of us and then clapped her hands together. 'right, off you go.' she nudged harry and we begun the process of leaving the hospital.
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harry had to pull me along as it felt like I floated towards the door of his car. the fresh air didn't seem as fresh as I thought it would be and it rained heavily, and I felt disoriented around the business around me. his black car was slick and he opened the door for me. harry seemed nervous and I still felt tension around us but it didn't seem to bother me cause I felt numb.
I sat in the front seat of his car, and placed my hands on my lap. the background noise was harry struggling to haul my small but heavy bag into his boot. he came to the front and got in rubbing his hands against his black jeans. 'shit its freezing, i'll put the heating on, is that alright?' he looks at me whilst putting his seatbelt on. I nod quickly and look out the window wanting to avoid conversation with him.
'where are we going then?' he speaks.
i shrug. 'i don't know.' i mumble. 'i don't want to go home.'
