Memories from the past
Begin to crowd my mind again
Hearing his voice haunt me
Remembering all about him
The days in the summer
The month before I left
The month of bliss
The month of peace
All but distant memories
All but a dream
The voicemails
I received
His voice I found comforting
Now haunt me
As I drift to sleep
The pictures I deleted
But still I seem to see him
As I close my eyes at night
The number I deleted
Along with the pictures
But still I remember the simple
7 digits and area code
Struggling to never text
Struggling to forget
The images and number
I cry late at night
Remembering him
Remembering the last time I saw him
Remembering laying in his arms
Remembering standing on my toes
To kiss him goodbye
Remembering, remembering
The pain now too much
He was the second man I loved
The second broken heart I received
But he did more
Than break my heart
But break my soul.
My first love
Still I love him
Still I talk to him
I fear I may
Never see him again
I miss his smile,
His laugh and voice
I miss all of him
Everything he is
Still I hold him close
Still he has a place in my heart
He is a good friend
Though he gave me a broken heart
He in a way helped heal it
I dare not let him go
Dare not say good bye
The memories of us
The memories of his kiss
And how he held me close
I miss it all
And still I remember them
They bring me some comfort
From the pain
I am lost in the memories
Again they haunt me
Day and night
Though I love again
My second love
Haunts me
I fear he may try to hurt me
I am lost
The memories flood my mind
Though there is pain
I find some comfort from my first love
I am lost once again
Memories flooding my mind
I see them smiling back at me
As visions of them
Fill my mind once again
I reach out but they disappear
Pain in most of the memories
Haunting me every moment
Cringing in fear
Listening to him yell
Blaming me for it all
Spatting the words of hatred at me
As if I were nothing
As if I weren’t human
And with each word
Another blow is delivered
Until I lay
Unconscious with blood dripping down
I wake up
Voice caught in my throat
I cannot scream
I am paralyzed in pain and fear
Nightmares haunt me
Nightmares of him
His skinny frame
His brown hair falling in his face
His brown eyes glaring at me
I am lost in the memories
The memories of the past
Pain comes with most
But some comfort is found
I wake most night
From a nightmare
Seeming so real
Seeming as real as life
As if he were standing there
Standing tall and proud
Right in front of me
I am lost in the memories
Even the pleasant ones bring me pain
The memories of my first love
Bring me comfort
But my nightmares continue
I am lost
In the memories of my past
All seeming so real
As if they stand
Right before me
Smiling back at me.
Memories seeming so real
Seeing them standing before me
But they are not.
The memories haunting me
