I can’t tell anymore
What is real?
And what is fake?
The memories come
And the memories go
Were they all but a dream?
Or did they happen?
Do I live in a dream land?
No longer can I tell
What is real
And what is fake
No longer can I tell
What is a dream
And what is reality
Reality is cruel
Dreams no longer perfect
Living in a nightmare
Memories haunting me
I your face when I awake
And see it in my sleep
You are standing there
Taunting me still
I refuse to think of you
To give into the torture
But yet you appear
Yet the memories still live
Our month was perfect
You made me believe you
When you said “I love you”
When you asked me to be
Your baby
I believed you
Then I was left
Broken hearted
A battered soul
Now haunted by memories
I want to call you
To send you a text
I want to see your face again
I struggle with the memories
Sleep now hard to come by
I smile and laugh
Try to act like I am fine
But truthfully I am
Breaking down again
I can’t tell anymore
What is real
And what is fake
I can’t tell anymore
The difference between
A dream and reality
I’m in living nightmare
You haunt me all the time
You made me believe you
Then you play with my emotions
I act like I am fine
Though truthfully I am not
I struggle not to text you
Struggle not to open old wounds
You haunt me day and night
I want to call and talk again
I want to text and see a reply from you
I want to see you again
The memories come
And the memories go
Haunting me night and day
You taunt me now
Though I try
To block you out of my mind
You come back
And haunt me night and day
It started with the nightmares
Now it is so much more
Now I see your face
When I am all alone
Now I hear your voice
In the wind
I turn to look
But it was my mind
Playing tricks in me
I can’t tell any longer
What is real
And what is fake
The memories come
And the memories go
Always a constant ebb and flow
What is a dream
And what is reality
You haunt me now
Day and night
Though I try
To block you out of my mind
