Fade Away

Chapter 5| Breathe

I was drowning in my own tears. This was definitely not the senior year I was expecting. 

My tears slowly subdued by lunch time. Yes, I was crying from the beginning of school till lunch. There were a few breaks though. Bella stayed with me throughout. During classes, I would pay attention, but the minute they ended, the flood gates were opened. I stopped though. 

I saw Hades in a few classes too, and he was looking at me apologetically. It was unfair that I'd forgiven Bella and not Hades. But, Bella is my best friend. Who's Hades to me? I ignored him for another week and just let it go. I was done with senior year and it literally started. September went and came October. My favorite month, mostly because of Halloween. 

I was over it. I had been ignoring Hades as much as possible. Sure, there were a few hellos and goodbyes but that's as far as it's ever going to get. He deserved it. What guy in his right mind would do that to a girl he supposedly likes? Or so Bella says anyways. A small smile crept up to my face but I killed it instantly. There was no part of me that liked Hades back. No part at all. However, through the past month, he really had gone out of his way to apologize to me. 

I snuggled into my orange sweater and stared at the window right across me. I had Bella curl up next to me, clearly chilly and cold. Hades sat awkwardly at the floor of the bed, glancing up every once in a while. The yearly October sleepover tradition was upheld this year too, even though it had to take much convincing from Bella to agree to have Hades join us the next morning. He had only just come, hence the reason of my awakening. I enjoyed the silence though. I nudged Bella in an effort to wake her up after a while, but I swear she was purposefully not waking up. Way to go Bells. Thanks. I scold, internally.

'Um, so do you want food?' I ask, discomfort seeping through each word. He shakes his head no and just stares at me. It's not even like a secret stare, its just full on and extremely blatant. I cock my eyebrow up quizzically but he just keeps staring. I snap my fingers in front of his face, incing closer and he smiles. This guy is going to be the death of me. 

'What's wrong?' I ask him sternly. I'm now sleeping on my stomach, my face facing his; only a mere inch away. He leans closer and man, do I feel a déjà vu. I can almost predict what's going to happen. Is this like our thing now or something? Where he goes and tries to convince me- and as much as I'd hate to admit, his eyes are extremely convincing- only to disappear again? No thanks. I begin to pull away but his palm caresses my cheek. I look down, already feeling the heat. His grey eyes look breathtaking, like the clouds before a storm. Just before a thunderstorm. His eyes do all his speaking. They're beautiful. If looks could kill, I would be in a grave right now. I was mesmerized. His eyes could apologize, talk, kill, and love. I would love to be loved by those eyes. 

He applies a gentle pressure on my face, pulling me closer. A few of my brown strands escape and the chilly wind makes them dance around like wisps in the plain. I could feel the electricity. It felt so momentous. I lost all control and let my body take over. He knew how to push my buttons. And he was pressing them alright. 

I almost yearned for his kiss. Just kiss me already, my brain screamed. The bridge of our noses were now touching. His lips were just millimeters away. I would love to kiss him. To show him what he missed before. But I wasn't going down without a fight. I pulled away immediately and smirked at him. How's that for a kiss, jerk? , I thought as I mentally applaud myself. His expression turned shades of confusion, regret, and surprisingly, appreciation. A small smirk played on his lips and I smiled at him. 

'Well played.' He says, smiling. 'I deserved that.' He says, running his hands through his envious hair and looking down shyly. 

I just smirk in response and try to hold it together. Every fiber and cell of my being was buzzing with voltage and though I tried to play it cool, I was chaos on the inside. 

Breathe Anna, breathe.

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Author's Note:

Hey guys! Sorry I couldn't update for long. I've been extremely busy with school and tests and everything else. If you guys have any tips at all on studying, pleaseeeeeee leave them down in the comments because I am totally failing high school otherwise.

Anyways, how was it?! This is a shorter chapter than before so I have accomplished my goal. I'll try to keep them shorter... unless you want me to write more? Sorry again for the avalanche of words and yeah I'll shut up. 

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Until later,

Aleyna.