Howl For The Eclipse

Chapter four- Out

I laced my shoes up quickly, And silently opened my window. I quickly climbed out, Grinning once my feet hit the mud.  I ran through the dark yard as the cold rain hit my skin, Well it felt cold to me at least. When you warm all the time, Everything feels cold.

I ran quietly as possible when I passed Sam and Emily's room, They were sleeping and had no Idea I was going out.  Soon as my feet hit the road, I sped my running up. Trying not to slip on the water, Which would suck.

I neared the boarder line, I know the leeches wont like me crossing the line. But I don't give a shit right now, Its not like I would be phasing or anything. I felt someone grab my wrist, I felt my stomach drop, Who had caught me? I turned around "Of course its you" I said narrowing my eyes at Paul.

"Good to see you too Mikayla" Paul said rolling his eyes, But kept his grip on my wrist, And I snatched it away "Where do you think your going Mikayla?" He asked in a serious voice, I crossed my arms and looked up at him.

"Refresh my memory Paul, When the hell did you become in charge of my life and had the right to know where I was going? Cause I seem to have forgotten" I snapped,  I  know this is normal Paul thing to do, At least to me that is. But seriously?

Paul sighed in frustration "You cant go on their land Mikayla, Besides you don't want to anyway it reaks of bloodsuckers there" Paul said, I glared at him, Clearly annoyed with him still. Doesn't he think I know it will smell of leeches?

"I just cant protect anyone on their land, I wont be phasing so it wont be a problem.  Even if I did want their heads off, Which I will mostly likely want to. I wont, I know how to handle myself Paul" I said still glaring at him.

Paul looked down at me, Slightly leaning down "Mikayla, You are not going on to their land" He said in a serious voice, I looked up at him in shocked. I am just lucky it wasn't Sam who said that, Or I would have no choice but to listen.

I stared back at him, Narrowing my eyes " I am going on their land Paul" I said in my beta voice, Which rocks at times. And I don't know why I am wasting my time arguing with Paul, I could go whenever I want, But he would of followed me anyway.

Paul backed down like he should, And stared at me for a second "Then I am coming with you." He said, I mentally smacked myself. This boy isn't going to give up is he? Not that I expected him to in the  first place, But it would be nice for once.

"Paul, Why?  Why must you come with me? Its not needed" I snapped rolling my eyes, He seemed to hesitate "Go on, Explain I would love to hear the reason Paul." I said raising a brow at him, Waiting to hear his response.

"Because, I feel the need to protect you" Paul admitted looking away, I stared at him for a moment before laughing without humor.  Do I need to draw this boy a picture? Its not going to happen, Not once not ever he needs to get over it.

"Two things Paul, I can very well protect myself, Probably twice as well as you can" I began feeling my hands shake slightly "Secondly, Even if I did need protection, YOU are not my imprint. Jacob is and  I don't even need his protection" I said each word slowly hoping it would sink in.

Hurt spread across Paul's face, I know its a sore spot for him. After what he told me, On the cliffs after my mom said she wanted me back, But I don't care. When Paul didn't say anything, I turned around and walked away, Crossing the boarder line.

I shoved my hands into my pockets as I kept walking, Sighing knowing Paul was following me. I glanced at him when he caught up to me, And looked down at my feet as we walked in silence. I have no idea where we are going, But I don't care as its away from here.

The only sound was of our footsteps and the rain pouring down heavier, I don't think there is a dry spot on us, But I don't care "What did Jess say, That made you so mad at her the other day? I know she told some of your 'secrets' but how exactly were they bad?" Paul asked breaking the silence between us, Making me mentally shake my head in anger.

I kept my head down, And sighed again "Why should I tell you Paul? So you can go around telling more people? And the entire pack as well?" I asked in a bitter voice, There was no way in hell I was going to tell Paul what I know she told them.

"Because you can trust me" Paul said sounding, Honest. And without even looking, I could tell he was looking at me when he said that. I could feel him staring at me,  Which only made me keep my head down and staring at my feet.

"How the hell can I trust you? When I couldn't even trust Jess, Who I known for more than half my life. Who the hell knows what she is going to tell people after what happened? She knows everything about me." I said, Still in a bitter voice.

"Mikayla, Do you honestly think I would be here if I did care about you? And that you couldn't trust me?" Paul said, And suddenly he grabbed my arm, Making me stop dead in my tracks. And he made me look up "You can really trust me, I promise." He said in a serious voice.

I yanked my arm away from him and took one step back "Don't touch me like that, Ever again" I growled, Before taking a quick breath "Apparently, Promises are meant to be broken." I said in a low voice, Looking him straight in the eyes.

Paul ran his hand through his hair, Which he almost couldn't do with his short hair "I am trying really hard to get you to trust me, Why wont you Mikayla?" He asked in a irritated voice, But still calm. And  he kept his hand on his head.

I stared at him, Taking a quick deep breath "Cause maybe Paul, I am tired of people breaking their promises, And maybe I am tired of getting hurt because of it." I snapped quietly, But my voice was angry with a icy edge to it.

Paul stared at me, Silent for a moment "Mikayla, It cant be that bad. There could be worse things then breaking promises" He said irritated, Obviously getting that there was more than just this recent promise. I would of been surprised if he didn't get it,

"You know shit about what promises been broken to me" I growled "Heres one, Mom promised he would love me, First and last time I saw my father I was five. He said and I quote 'You are a disappointment, I never wanted a daughter never. At least I have one son'" I said in a dark voice "First promise I had ever had broken, He didn't give a shit about me or Sam. And promises just kept breaking from then on, And don't you dare say thats why I am the way I am. Because its not!"I said raising my voice, Shaking from anger.

Paul stared at me, Surprised at what I had admitted "Mikayla, I had no idea.." He said softing his voice, I rolled my eyes, Obviously he didn't "Is that one of the things Jess had told someone?" He asked still in a quiet voice.

"One of them yes" I said narrowing my eyes and crossed my arms "Paul, If you know whats good for you. I suggest you stay out of my life, For good. We are both just going to get hurt in the end" I said, Suddenly remembering I had said to Jacob literally right before I imprinted on him on the beach. I turned away from Paul, Walking quickly  I knew he wasn't following me, The words I had said probably still processing in his head. Soon as I got around a corner, I began running.

After several hours of running, I stopped to sit down on a bench, And cried, Which I seemed to be doing a lot of lately. It was still pouring but harder then before, Which surprised me. And another thing, I have no idea where I am or what time it is, But I don't care.

*EMILY'S BRIEF POV*

I had gotten up to check on Mikayla, She had seemed so depressed ever since yesterday. But  she wouldn't say exactly why, But the boys said it was pretty bad. I quietly opened the door, Careful not to wake Mikayla. I carefully peaked my head in the room, Only to find it empty. And the window open, Only allowing few raindrops in due to the location of the room. I ran back to Sam and I's bedroom, Fearing the worst "Sam!"I said in a urgent voice soon as I ran into the room, A sleeping Sam almost immediately sat up.

"Whats wrong!? Are you okay!?" Sam asked obviously still half asleep, And tried to get out of bed. Thought I love Sam, I could do without his over protectiveness, I know he cant help it. But its truly not necessary thing.

"Mikayla's gone, Shes not in her room. And her window is open" I said quickly, And Sam lost some color in his face. Though he wont admit it to anyone, Mikayla has quite grown on him. Even in the short time they known each other, He loves Mikayla as if he known she was his sister his whole life.

"I will call the Black's she might of went to see Jake, I don't think she would of left La Push" Sam said calmly, Though I knew he wasn't really calm. It was written on his face that he wasn't, Plus I knew him better than that.