Howl For The Eclipse

Chapter Six-Everything Falls

My entire body ached, I had slept outside last night. Right outside the treaty line, So no one would dare to look for me in wolf form. Its not like I had anywhere to go anyway, I am pretty sure Sam is still pissed at me. And I cant deal with that.

I slowly walked to go to the beach, No one has noticed I was back yet, And honestly. I don't even care,  Leah and Seth are gone for the week, So I cant go see them. Soon as I stepped on the beach, My eyes stopped on two people, And the break in my heart started to get bigger.

Isabella looked at Jacob as they stopped walking "Earlier you mentioned about Imprinting" Isabella began, With a brief pause "Have you found your imprint?" She asked, Sounding truly curious. I stood still, And wanted to hear his response.

"You know I care about you alot" Jacob said, almost as if he avoiding her question, Pain rushed through me, But I ignored it. Isabella nodded "And I would do anything for you" He continued, The pain in me grew, Where was he going with that?

Isabella nodded slowly "Jake... What are you trying to say? You are not leaving are you?" She asked,  Jacob ran a hand through his hair, And then put it back to his side. My heart started to beat faster, Did any of them know I was here?

"Bella" Jacob began softening his voice "What I am trying to say is.." He said pausing, And took a quick breath " I love you." He finished, And when he said that. I quickly but softly slapped my hand over my mouth to hid the gasp of pain, And tears started to form again.

Isabella shook her head quickly "Jake... " She began, And went to continue but was cut off. When Jacob pulled her to him and kissed her,  And kept a tight grip on her. And what was left of my heart, Shattered into a million tiny pieces. Isabella struggled to break away from him, But it only made him kiss her more.

"Jacob" I choked out in a loud voice, It was  obvious by my voice I was in pain, Even if you couldn't tell by my voice the tears were a dead give away too. Jacob stopped and his head snapped towards me, And a guilty and pained expression washed over his face, And before he had time to say anything, Isabella punched him only to grab her hand in pain "So this is why you stood me up yesterday." I said in a weak voice, And more tears fell "Fuck you Jacob, Fuck this whole imprinting thing. I don't give a damn anymore, Its over between us." I shouted,  And ran off before anyone had time to respond.

I ran far and fast as my body would let me, When I knew I was out of sight of the beach.  I fell to the ground, The tears came faster, The pain was stronger. The image of him kissing her was burned into my mind, No matter how hard I tried to get it out it stayed. He said he loved her, Was everything he told me a lie? Did he ever love me? Or was I some part of his stupid game to see how much more I could be broken, Well he did a fucking perfect job, I was broken but now I am shattered.

I heard tires squeal, But I didn't bother to move. If the car was going to hit me, Let it. I am tired of this pain, I want a new type of pain. Better yet, I want to be dead. I heard footsteps run towards me, But I didn't feel an impact "Mikayla! Are you okay!?" A familiar voice said sounding panicked, I didn't move my head to face him...

"Paul... Do me a favor." I mumbled as he quickly stumbled to my side, His  face was confused and worried. He went to speak, But I cut him off "Paul,Kill me, I cant take it any longer. Please just kill me Paul and don't ever look back on it" I begged, And more tears fell.

Paul's eyes grew wide in shock "Mikayla, What the hell happened? Don't EVER speak like that, I am NOT going to kill you" Paul said, I let out a shaky breath. Why not tell   him? Its not like its going to make it any better or any worse.

I finally lifted my head to look at him completely "He kissed her..." I mumbled, Why couldn't I be numb instead of in pain?  I wanted this to end "He kissed her.. " I repeated laying my head down again, My eyes ached from crying so much in the last few days, I don't understand how I had any tears left.

"Mikayla, Who kissed who?" Paul asked confused, And when I didn't reply. He lifted my head off the cool ground "Mikayla, Please tell me who kissed who" He pleaded, I stared at him silently for a moment,  I don't deserve to know someone like him..

"Jacob kissed Isabella" I choked out "And he told her he loved her..." I whimpered softly, And let out a shaky breath "And it was right in front of me, Neither of noticed me until I said something. And when Isabella asked about if he had a imprint, He didn't say anything. He practically denied me" I added, Obviously hurt.

A flash of anger spread across Paul's face and was gone by the time I could blink  "Why the hell would he do that?" Paul asked, With a angry hint to his voice. I attempted to shrug my shoulders, But nothing happened. Weak, Thats what I am right now.

We both stayed silent for a moment, And suddenly Paul picked me up. This got an instant reaction from me "Let me go Paul!" I said quickly, And tried to get out of his arms. But he didn't let me go, Instead he just tightened his grip.

"No." Paul said, And quickly opened the passenger door to his car, And sat me down in it. He placed his hands on each side of the door frame so I couldn't get out "You are obviously in bad shape, I had no idea what" He paused to take a breath to keep from shaking "Happens to people who do that to their imprints, And I am not leaving you alone if you want to die" He said, And shut the door and went to the driver's side.

After  I don't know how many hours, I was now laying on a bed in Paul's guestroom at his house,I cant even begin to explain how weird that is. I still was in pain, Mainly in my chest "What is wrong with her? What happened?" A voice said, Sam?

"She is asleep" Paul said quickly, No I am not. But they don't need to know that, And thank you wolf hearing "When I found her, She was laying on the side of the street. Crying, Asking me to kill her. That she wanted it to end" He said and then there was a sudden pause "I am going to kill Jacob." He said after the pause.

"What does Jake have anything to do with this?" Sam asked, I sighed as I listened to them. The pain started to get stronger, I know I shouldn't be listening. But I cant exactly help it, My hearing is making me and I guess I want to know how Sam will react.

"Because Jacob kissed Bella Swan and told her he loved her" Paul said in a dark voice, I shut my eyes as the pain took over my body, And the tears started again "And to top that all off, HE stood her up yesterday on HER BIRTHDAY" He added, his voice was now louder.

Everything was silent for a moment, Which made me nervous "Doesn't he know how dangerous that could be? For one no one knows what happens if a wolf gets denied by there imprint, Secondly she is close enough with some people in the pack that they would hurt him" Sam said, In a calm voice.

"Are you sure there is no way she can stop the imprint? Its completely unfair that he imprinted on her and treats her like this." Paul said, This time his voice was less angry, And quieter. Sam must of calmed him down "If I actually got to imprint on her instead of him I would of treat her right" He said in a much quieter voice, That I almost couldn't hear completely.

"How long Paul?" Sam asked, His voice was quieter also "How long have you wanted to imprint on Mikayla instead of Jacob imprinting on her?" He added,  Memories from the night Paul had told me he wanted to imprint on me popped into my head. I couldn't wait to hear his response.

"For a long time, Ever since I heard he imprinted on her. Why else would I still want to help her even after she told me to get out of her life and stay out?" Paul questioned, Guilt rushed over me.  How can I stay here knowing Paul still feels that way?