Smile.
I smiling big enough?
Do they notice the dark spots on my sweater?
No.
Good.
I don't want anyone to know.
But at the same time,
I do.
When I push someone away they leave.
When I really want them to stay.
They don't.
Still smiling while my mind is tearing away my insides.
Death runs through my head as I smile.
Smile and laugh.
Like I'm fine.
No one cares enough to see in not.
The quiet is the worst.
When the voice is the loudest.
'No one cares.'
'No one will ever know or care enough to listen.'
'You are killing yourself I'm just giving you the motivation.'
I don't care anymore.
Smile one last time.
Laugh one last time.
Say goodbye to my friends one last time. They won't miss me.
Say goodbye to my family.
They think they'll see me after school.
I'll miss them.
I'll see them again maybe.
I don't know.
This is goodbye.
On the video of my last goodbye, since my hand writing was never very eligible, I didn't smile.
I didn't laugh.
I cried.
Harder than I ever have before.
And it felt amazing.
It was the best feeling.
Ended to quickly.
"Well.. I guess this is goodbye. I'll see you in whatever comes after."
KAMU SEDANG MEMBACA
Depressing Shit
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