Constellations

Chap 1

-Rm's POV-

Pushing past the heavy doors of the highschool, I'm greeted by assholes I call "friends." I can hear them speaking excitedly about the upcoming basketball season, betting on which of them will score most. One of the boys catch sight of me, immediately guiding the conversation to how great of a captain I am. Sucking up to me, as always. It makes me nauseous. I really hate having to be around these guys, but if it means I keep my reputation as the bad boy hot jock who only dates the prettiest of girls, then so be it. None of them can ever find out I'm gay; it would send my social status plummeting to ground 0. They would make life hell for me. I would never be the team captain again, never be looked at the same. It'd be the worst thing ever. I would never make it out of high school alive. I've been able to hide it for eight years and now that I'm a senior I plan to keep it hidden just until I graduate. I merge into the crowd of obnoxious jokes and nervous glances— at me, of course. "Hey guys what's up?" I flash them one of my ear to ear grins, knowing damn well it's fake. It's all fake.
"Hey namjoon. Wanna get bulgogi after school today?" one of them, park jisung, raised his hand in greeting towards me. I know his kind invitation is just a disguise. I know he just wants me to pay. Not this time.
"Sure I'll go but I'm broke right now" I say, lying through my teeth. I have an abundance of money, but I wouldn't want to spend it on them. I hear the door open again, looking over my shoulder to see who it is.
Oh shit....... It's seokjin. No way. He hates my guts. Maybe because I've treated him like shit for the past four years and constantly bullied him. But it's fake. It's fake just like the rest of it. Jin was my first crush and has been for eight straight years (more like gay years hAhAhA sry bye). I remember being angry and confused, wondering why I never felt anything for the girls in my class. Then there he was, making my heart hurt, making me question my sexuality. I knew it was a crush.
I don't know what comes over me when I talk to him. it's like my pride takes over my words and the real me, the one who wants seokjin all to himself, is sitting on the sidelines cool and collected, watching Jin get attacked by my words. It's like I have no control. I can't help but be distracted by how good he looks in his uniform, hot even. Oh no what am I going to do...
"Namjoon! What are you staring at bro?? Are you okay?" jisung shakes me out of my trance.
"Y-yeah I'm cool. Just wondering on how he manages to look gayer every year. Damn like what is his secret? " here I go again, running my big mouth about the very opposite of what I actually think about Seokjin. Damnit Kim namjoon you're such a fucking pussy dude.
"Yah you're right. How does he manage that? let's go have a word with that fag" jisung motions the team over to where seokjin and min hoseok, his best friend and my team mate, stand. I follow but stay in the back, I know some type of word vomit will surface. I'll regret it and Jin will hate me more. It's just how it's been. Jin is glaring, specifically at me and I just happen to return the favor.
"Yah what do you guys want. I haven't done anything it's literally the first day of school. " he skims over everyone with a bored and angry look. Especially me, and I feel it coming. That word vomit.
"Just wanted to ask you a small question," I ask with a playful smirk, "how do you happen to look gayer every single year. My buddies and I were just wondering"
"Well you see" he's starting another one of his sarcastic remarks " it's this new moisturizer called Make Me Gayer." He looks me in the eye. "I see you've been using it also"
"Yah you little punk" It's happening again. Mentally, my real self takes a seat at the sidelines as I watch a twisted version of myself angrily approach seokjin. I see him grab my jinnie by the collar "I'll fuck you up, don't try me"
"Watch me" he leans towards me, looking straight into my eyes. They're filled with pure hatred and I can't blame him. I can feel his breath on my lips, smelling of mint. It's intoxicating. He pushes my chest back and walks past me, into the classroom followed by hoseok.
"Hyung, you're so red! What are you, fucking gay?" Jisung jokes, laughing at how amusing he thinks he is. I'm blushing like crazy. I realized how close he was to my face, if I wanted to, I could've kissed him right there. If I had leaned in, maybe only an inch....
"Of course not" I scoff back at him, and make my way to the classroom. I see that all of the seats are taken Except for the few near my jinnie. Not a good sign. That means the boys, including myself, will constantly be bullying him. Aish, just one year id like for that not to happen. Just one year, I'd like a truce. And of course I pick the seat right next to him. I can't help gravitating towards him. As I sit I can feel his eyes on me. Almost piercing through my uniform and leaving a burn mark on my skin. Before any one of us can say anything the teacher comes in and we do our normal greetings.
" this semester we are having a very important project. It's going to be a one month process with a partner from this class. My choice." He gives us a smile as the class groans. "by the end of this you and your partner might know more than you'd like. Think of it like an...ice breaker project" he pauses as the groans of the class continues. "and before you even think about missing out on this. It's such an easy 'a' I'm making it 75% of your grade"
"That's bullshit" I hear Jin say under his breath.
" excuse me mr.kim seokjin? Would you care to repeat that?" The teacher clearly heard what he said and is now staring daggers at Jin. Jin gets red, and when I say red I mean....really red.
"N-no sir " I see him blush and it's the cutest thing ever "I-I didn't mean to speak out, I'm sorry"
"That's more like it seokjin" the teacher starts calling out the names of the students putting them into pairs "mmmm Kim seokjin and Kim namjoon, you're both partners"
Jin's chair screeches against the floor with how quickly he stands up. "Sir please let me switch" He looks at the teacher with begging eyes. I can't help but shrink in my seat. I'm actually pretty excited to do this. This means that I get to spend every day with jinnie after school. Personal time with him. And best of all: I won't be around the team so I won't have to be on The sidelines. I'll actually be in control.
"Nope. No switches or changes with partners what I assign is what you get"
"Ugh this is too much " he groans as he sits back down and puts his head on the desk. My eyes trace over the strands of his hair. Just you wait, Jin. you'll see. I'll show you that I'm not a bad person.
I tear from my eyes from his hair, looking down at my hand. Though my words are directed at them, he would never hear them.
"Just give me time."

<p>Okayyyyyyy Creds to my wonderful friend for editing this without her it wouldn't be as good as it it yes yes yes so check her dank profiles @goat-fetish @neon-wonwoo and Creds to @bangtan-kitty for helping come up with the whole plot she amazin too❤️</p>