Vampire Protection Program

Chapter 18: A HAUNTING PAST

Okay everyone. I just want to say that this chapter might be a little confusing, so please, if you have any questions at all, ask them and I will do the best I can in answering them. 

Thank you so much for all the comforting things y'all have said. It really helps more than you think. Even if you didn't say much, it really did. Also, thank you for being so patient with me. That helps a lot too! 

Anyway, here is chapter 18.

I hope you enjoy!!

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I stood in the shower, my hands and forehead pressed against the wall, and let the water run over my body. I was exhausted. I hadn't slept very much on the way to the motel—if any really—and I was a little dizzy and nauseated. I was half tempted to call Sebastian into the bathroom because every time I tried to move or open my eyes, everything was spinning and it made the nausea so much worse, but I hadn't called him in because I didn't want him to worry. I was already doing that enough for the both of us.

Besides, he had Camille to deal with.

When we had gotten here, she was waiting in the room. She went straight for Sebastian, not paying attention to the rest of us and I felt angry, sad and slightly jealous about how he looked and smiled at her like she was everything. I had held back tears of "betrayal" as I looked down and moved toward the bathroom door. I shivered as I pulled my jacket off and tossed it on to one of the beds as I passed it.

"I think your girlfriend is pissed son." Stated Lance as I opened the door and went into the bathroom. I was about to close it, but Deric managed to push his way in and closed the door behind him.

I stepped back, startled, and looked up at him, then looked down at his chest so I could avoid his eyes, as I heard Sebastian start to protest.

"It's alright." I heard Camille tell him as Deric moved close to me. I stepped back into the door, my back suddenly to it—stupid vampire speed—as he pressed his hands to it, not really caging me in because I knew if I really wanted to, he would let me go, and put his forehead to mine. "He won't try anything. He just wants to make sure she is okay." I felt a little angry as I heard Sebastian sigh and give in so quickly. Of course he would. She was his mate and she had already taken him from me.

"I'm sorry Sammie-"

"It's fine." I shrugged and looked at the floor.

"No it's not." He took my face in his hands but I turned away. "See, you won't even look at me. I'm sort. For what she said and what I did and now she's here and I know you don't like it-"

"It's... not that." I sighed. "I don't care what she said or what she thinks about me unless it affects us. I don't even care that she is here... what you did... yeah, I'm still upset about it, but I understand your reasoning behind it. Does it make it right, no, but I understand and it doesn't change the fact that I love you..." slowly, I looked up at him and he touched my cheek.

"Then what is it Sammie?" he asked softly. "Why are you suddenly so depressed? I mean worse than the normal kind you've been at the last couple of days?" I didn't say anything. "It's got to be something to do with Cam, so what is it?" tears filled my eyes and I turned away. "Oh Baby." He sighed and pulled me away from the door into his strong arms. "Please tell me what's going on." He whispered. "You're worrying me."

"I'm losing them." I sobbed as I buried my face in his chest.

"What do you mean? Who? Why?" he questioned.

"Andy and Sebastian." He tensed and I pulled away. I turned around and faced the door as I wrapped my arms around myself and shivered violently. "I'm losing Andy because I choose to love you and I'm already losing Sebastian to her. I guess I know how Andy feels now..." I sniffed and then wiped my nose on me sleeve. "I'm sorry. I just need a shower." I turned to Deric again and he had me pressed against the door once more, this time, his hands on my face as he held it gently. His face was inches from mine and my breath caught as I looked into his beautiful eyes.