Kensi POV
When I was waiting for my food I realized that Joseph was here at this restaurant. But he didn’t know we were here. Our food came and Deeks and I started to eat. It was a slow romantic eating. I don’t know what Deeks was talking about but it felt good to let loose. We were talking and laughing. We talked about everything but work. It was amazing. For the next 3 hours I forgot everything. I forgot that I could possibly be killed, or that my mom and I were still going through a rough patch. I felt airless. Like there was nothing on my shoulders.
“I’m going to the bathroom.” I told Deeks. Our conversation had come to a silence. It wasn’t an awkward silence but a peaceful one. I got up from the table and purposely walked right by the table of those two guys. I heard their conversation
“when…soon…but it been 3… I know… but he wants…”
I didn’t even want to think about it right now. I was in paradise. I walked into the bathroom. And then it hit me. Deeks was the love of my life. He was everything I had ever wanted in the world. Deeks was what was sitting in the middle of my frozen lake. He was everything I've wanted but for some reason I couldn't run fast enough to get it. Deeks had always been there for me. He never once gave up on me. Jack walked right out of my life, didn’t even say bye. My dad didn’t really walk out but he’s not here anymore. That’s when I broke. Right there in the middle of the bathroom. I wept and wept. My life is falling apart right before my eyes and there isn’t anything I can do about it. I was lucky that here wasn’t anyone in here because they would surely think I should be in a mental institution. I must have cried 40 minutes before Deeks came looking for me. He said it was 11:45 and that the restaurant was almost completely empty. He took me by the hand and walked me out. He was carrying my bag and didn’t even care about it.
We got in to car and he drove us home. But this time we went to his house. I got out and walked into house. It was um… interesting. Very clean. He didn’t have much. He told me I could take the bed if I wanted too. I looked at him. He must have thought I was wondering what I was going to wear because he went into a room and came back with a t-shirt. I went into the bathroom and changed. It was a long t-shirt and come down to my knees. I put my hair up into a messy bun. I didn’t have to care how I looked when I was with Deeks. I knew he didn’t care what I looked like.
We didn’t go to sleep until 1 in the morning. We danced and laughed and had the most wonderful time I have had in ages. It was amazing. I felt like I was 19 again. When we had enough and we got very tired I climbed into the bed. Deeks came in and kissed me on check. He started headed out of the room but I stopped him.
“Deeks? Can you please stay with me?”
“Sure whatever you want sugar bear.” He started to pull a chair up.
“No, in the bed,” He looked very shocked like I was crazy.
“oh- - okay.” He climbed in with me.
I felt his warm body press up against mine. His breathing evened out. He wrapped his arm around my waste and fell into a light sleep. I laid awake for awhile. I had never felt safer in my life. I knew that the one person that I could with my soul was lying the bed right next to mine. I feel into the deepest best sleep I have had in months.
I do not own Deeks nor do i own Kensi.
