Lost Butterfly | Rap Monster - BTS ~Kim Namjoon x Reader ANGST

Chapter 1/4

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{(Y/N) PoV:}

Today is the day! It's finally here! The moment I've been waiting for since he first got on his knee, eyes glimmering in the warming sunset. Soft silky hair flowing in the wind as the waves danced across Han River. Of course I had to say "Yes, yes I do. I accept you as my future lawfully wedded husband, Kim Namjoon!" That moment continues to live on within the depths of my memories as one of the most beautiful moments in life. Hopefully I can add this day to that collection too! I love you Joonie, it's been 5 years since it first began; those random heartaches, my burning face just by the mere mention and sight of you, the jealousy of seeing you with another girl, be it for educational reasons or not, I can't help it... That I've fallen for you. But why? Why did you choose me? Either way I'm thankful for being chosen by an angel like you.

BEEP! BEEP! BEEP! The sound of a monitor echoes in my ears. What happened? Where's Namjoon? Oh yeah! Never mind. I know exactly where he is! I trusted him, I gave him everything... and he blew it all away especially on the most important day of my life, our wedding day. Did it really mean nothing to you, Namjoon? All those "I love you"s, the cuddles, the kisses, nothing at all? I must be dreaming, Namjoon would never betray me. He would never leave me for his ex- ShinHye - Especially on the day of our wedding! Or could he?

All of a sudden the doctor comes in. " I see you're finally awake Mrs- Ms (Y/N)." " Why am I here?" I reply without hesitation. I have to make something clear. " You were in a car accident where you got hit by a car, are you feeling better now?" "Yes, thank you Dr.-" "Dr. Choi" "Yes of course, thank you Dr. Choi" " My pleasure. I have some news for you however, we took some examinations and judging by the results, i'm really sorry to say but its extremely difficult to say you'll be able to walk again." What? I... can't walk..? I stay there motionless. As he left eomma and appa came rushing in with worried faces, along with my younger brother, Jungkook. Tears began flooding down my now wet face as eomma gave me a hug from the side of the bed. We didn't utter a single word to each other, our tears were enough to communicate. Strange. Namjoon isn't anywhere to be seen. I'd expect him to be here, since he caused all of this mess to begin with... or maybe not- I'm probably just overthinking it too much, he left me standing there alone at the altar for ShinHye. If I hadn't ran after you that day maybe I wouldn't have ended up like this. But do I regret it? Of course not; at least now I know he doesn't care as much as I thought he did. He won't come back now; do I still love him? Deep down I'm devastated he didn't come, I really thought he would. Was our love not strong enough? Did it die away with my ability to use my legs?

~Time Skip~ ~Back Home~

It's been a few days since I was discharged and I'm sitting back in my old room. Whilst I was in the hospital he never once came to visit, did he even know? Or was he too busy with his mistress? I could care less now, it's time I got over him. I guess everything is back to normal, the way it used to be. Five years ago... Before I met you...