Lost Butterfly | Rap Monster - BTS ~Kim Namjoon x Reader ANGST

Chapter 2/4

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Author's Note:
I'd like to just quickly say that there are several PoV switches; I apologise for any inconvenience and I hope you enjoy this chapter. Let me know in the comments what your thoughts are; I'd love to get some feedback on this FF; reflective critisism is always welcome! Thx xD

{(Y/N) PoV:}

Ever since I got home eomma has always been near me, 24/7. But she went to take a shower right now; she must be really stressed out about everything that happened. You can't really blame her. It's getting dark so I'm going to sleep soon. CLACK! All of a sudden a rock is heard greeting my window. Curious I go to the source only to be presented by a bouquet of red roses in his hands... "Namjoon? Wha-" 'What is he doing here?' To much of my surprise he enters through the window and sits himself on the floor. 'Seriously, who does he think he is? "Jagi, I'm so sorry for what happened! I didn't know it would be this bad! 정말 미안해!! 사랑해 자기야!* Please forgive me, I need you." Is he serious? "Why what happened to ShinHye? Just go back to her, you've done enough damage already and why did you come from there? I thought you were more civilised, there's something called a door." without hesitation his strong arms pulled my wheelchair close and hugged my waist.

 'Wait, do I still love him? I shouldn't! He's the one who caused these problems and now you won't ever be able to walk again! Why am I such a pabo?!'* "Your parents... they won't let me see you after what happened. They told me to leave... forever. You know how scary your dad is, he threatened to kill me! i couldn't come meet you in the hospital but now I had to come. I had no choice. I really love you, I really do." "If you do, then why did you leave me there alone at the altar? Do you know how long I waited for that day? The hurt, the pain, all the suffering I went through... because of... all because of you! I trusted you with everything I had. And you just broke my heart, again." The expression plastered on his face was that of shock. "What? When? I had to go; Shin-" "It's always about her but what about us? Do I really mean nothing to you?" "You don't understand, she was having a heart attack! Her husband called me to help because they live on the fifth floor of a state building with no lifts! I care about you more than my own life! Heck, she's the one who brought us together! Or did you forget that? But... all of this... It happened because of me, I'm so sorry, I didn't know this would happen... I miss you! Please forgive me!" I'm presented with him on the floor begging me. 

Now I'm the one with a jolt of paralysis- well i already am from my legs, but what he just said... I never knew. What should I do? I can't stay mad at him even if... I can't walk... I still love him. But... but I can't do this, "I don't want to see you right now, please leave. If my parents don't want you to see me, then they surely thought this through. They've brought me up for 20 years, and what they say is what I have to follow. ShinHye, she may have brought us together but she also tore us apart from each other. There's no other way, now please leave before eomma comes back. I don't want you to cause more trouble." 'I still care about you' I gesture my head towards the bathroom. "...I understand."

{Namjoon PoV}

'I will make you mine again. Just you wait; there's nothing in the world that can stop me.' I can't believe what I've done and what I'm going to do...

{Back to normal PoV- (Y/N) PoV}

With that his shadow begins to disappear into the cold air of the late night. 'I will wait for you' a trail of liquid traces my cheeks. The door opens and eomma walks in. "Is everything alright, (Y/N)? I thought I heard someone in here. And why is the window open? It's chilly and you know you catch colds quickly." her long thin arms swiftly shut the windows, trapping all the cold breeze outside. "Ah, sorry eomma I wasn't paying attention." Wiping away my escaping tears I answer to cute the still atmosphere. 11:59- I should go to bed now. I have an examination tomorrow at the hospital again.

~Time Skip to After the Examination~
{Normal PoV- (Y/N) PoV:}

The doctor said that I'm going to have to use a wheelchair forever... I don't know how to feel. No tears. 'Can I really blame you Namjoon? Or is it all because of my naivety... I'm so stupid.'

{Namjoon PoV:}

Today is the day. I'm going to do it; I'm taking back what's mine... well what should've been mine had ShinHye not faced that heart attack. Either way I'm taking her back, even if I have to kidnap her, I will! I need you... (Y/N). I miss you... I want you...

{Normal PoV- (Y/N) PoV:}

Today has been a fairly long day- running back and forth with all the tests; they aren't over yet. I still have to another two tests left before the regular checkups can begin... My life has changed so much, in such a short time.

I'm really sorry!! I love you honey!*

pabo- idiot