Death Note: How You Met (Near x Reader)

How you met - 3: Admitting

You got up from your bed and did your usual morning routine. It's been almost a month since you and Near have been friends. Each time you we'e with him, your feelings for him would develop stronger.

But you didn't show it much around him. You knew he couldn't show or return the emotions back because he was born that way. It didn't matter to you in any way. You would still have feelings for him regardless of the circumstances.

At some points, you would feel like he's hiding secrets from you. You wanted to know more about him. You wanted Near to trust in you. But he was still unsure about that.

Knowing Near, you couldn't hide anything from him. He'll detect if you were lying to him or not. He was a smart boy. Those were one of the reasons why you liked him.

You often wondered if he ever suspects that you liked him. But though you hide your emotions from him very well. 

You walked out of your room towards Near's room. Which was located downstairs.

As you made your way over to his door knob, you notice his door was already open. As if he knew you were coming by to see him.

"Come in..." You heard Near's voice from the other side.

You were a bit surprised to hear him say that but you proceed to go in anyway. You felt butterflies in your stomach when you saw him looking at you. You only smiled.

"Hi Near, i came by to see how you were doing" You told him as you watched him sit back on the floor, playing with his toys.

"...I know. That's why i left the door open slightly. I knew you were coming by to see me.." He said while he played with his tiny puppets on his fingers.

You were shocked. He always had ways to impress you without even trying.

"(Y/N)....come play with me" He told you.

You nodded your head and sat beside him. You looked at his toy puppets on the floor and notice one look exactly like you. Your eyes widen for a moment.

"Is that...me?" You thought.

"Near?..." You began.

"Yes?" He responded to you.

You pointed at the toy that looked just like you.

"...Is that...me?" You said trying not to sound nervous.

"I figured you would ask...and to answer your question, yes. It is you...(Y/N)" He placed the puppet toy next to another puppet that looked exactly like him.

You felt your cheeks darken when you saw him place the two puppets next to each other.

"...W-why would you-" You strayed off when you felt his eyes lay on yours.

"....(Y/N)...Can I ask you a question?" He asked you.

You gulped and felt your face heat up even more to the thought of him asking you something embarrassing.

"Y-yes Near?" You said shyly.

"....Why do you act so strange every time you're with me?"

"Oh no..what should I say?! I can't act nervous now. He'll suspect something!"

"W-what are you talking about? No I don't.." You said looking away blushing.

"That...you stutter when you speak to me...."

"Dang it, he noticed..."

"(Y/N)... Do you possibly have taking a liking to me?" He kept staring at you for an answer.

You took a deep breath and finally said,

"Yes, I do like you Near. You are my friend after all. Why wouldn't I?" You replied. Not hoping that he notices you lying to him.

He glared. "Liar..."

Your eyes widen to see him glare at you.

"You know exactly what I'm referring to, (Y/N)..." He took a piece of his hair as he twirled it around his finger.

You took another deep breath as you let your head hanging down. You didn't have a choice but to admit to him. He saw threw me. He knew me very well.

"Alright Near. I admit it. I do like you...more than a friend...I've always liked you this whole time. But I never showed it because I was afraid you might reject me. And because I thought you wouldn't care if I had feelings for you..." You wanted to cry but you hold it in.

Instead, you got up and ran back up stairs to your room. You locked the door behind you and ran to your bed to cry.

You buried your face on your small pillow as you began to sob in it. You didn't wanted to see Near anymore. You were afraid he might say something negative to you.

You wanted to stay and hear what he would say to you. But your emotions got the best of you. You didn't wanted to go out of your room anymore.

You were scared.

***

<2 Week Later>

It's been two weeks since you last saw Near. You did almost everything in your room as you tried to make yourself occupied. You ate and played in your room on your own.

There were times you would miss playing with Near. You felt yourself dying from not seeing him all this time.

Sometimes, there where knocks on your door. But you didn't answer them because you thought it would be him. You tried thinking of something else until you noticed you're room a bit messy.

You decides to clean it up for once and grabbed a broom from your tiny closet. Once you were half way done, all you needed to clean was under your bed. You pulled the blanket up and saw a bunch of toys under neath your bed. You noticed some of the toys weren't yours. You took one out to realize it was Near's.

"Was Near in my room before?..." You thought as you were in complete shock.