Same Difference

Chapter 21-Kiss kiss, Bang!

After I stormed off stage I headed straight for my dressing room to hide. As soon as I opened the door I saw Logan sitting on my little sofa with a smirk on his face.

'Hey.'

'Hi, Logan.' Enjoy the fiasco?

'That was a brilliant song but I think the rant was even more entertaining.'

I rolled my eyes at him, 'Gee, thanks but I wasn-'

He cut me off as he suddenly walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me, he looked into my eyes for second before bringing his lips to mine and softly kissing me. His tongue skimmed over my bottom lip and I let out a small moan before breaking away from him.

'I've wanted to kiss you ever since we played video games in my hotel room.' Is he serious!? I don't even know if I'm ready for friends let alone this? What about Niall? I care about him a lot too but I'm not sure which one of them i want to be with or even if I'm ready for a relationship! Now I'm rambling in my own head...

'Logan, I- I need t-to think, ok?' He looked confused for a second and then his face fell.

'You don't like me?' Ummm....

'I'm just n-not sure how I feel r-right now. I need time. Just give m-me a little space to decide.' He nodded and kissed my forehead.

'I won't give up on you.' With those words he left.

I flopped down on the sofa with a bottled water and closed my eyes. Maybe I should give Logan a chance since Niall doesn't even seen interested in dating right now but how deep are my feelings for Lolo? Is it just a passer-by crush or something more..?

My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of my door opening and closing. I didn't bother to open my eyes until I heard the heart-melting Irish accent,

'I came to see how you were doin' after what happened with Morgan.' I opened my eyes to see an adorably worried face framed by messy white-blond hair and deep blue eyes.

'I'm fine, thanks Niall. Are you alone or did the boys...' I trailed off because of course the others were not with him.

'I also wanted to know if you wanted to go clubbing with us. Both bands are going and Louis went to invite Jenna.'

'I'd love to.' I loved at the clock, almost time to hear the voting results. 'I think I should get back onstage.' He took my hand and we walked backstage.

As he was about to go back to his seat he whispered in my ear, 'If you need anything just ask, ok.'

His breath on my skin sent shivers down my spine as I nodded and headed for my stage entrance.

***

Jenna and I giggled as we climbed into a limo with Logan, Marcel and James. I made the top three and Jen made the top six! We're so excited for a night of music, alcohol and fun although I've learnt my lesson when it comes to over drinking. I think I'll stay sober especially with Logan around.

***

It feels like I've been dancing for hours, well only two. Jenna's really drunk and passed out but Louis is staying with her since hes not drinking tonight. Liam and James are watching me like hawks to make sure I don't get drunk, I've been dancing very provocatively just to get on their nerves... It's definintly working!

I felt a hand wrap around my wrist and pull me into one of the small curtained off booths. Once inside I realised that it was so privet could be another room altogether, I spun around and came face to face with Niall.

'Evelyn, I, um, well, I couldn't do this with your brother and the others watching so I was hoping for a little privacy.' Before I could ask what he meant his arm went around my waist, pulling me closer and the other twisted in my hair forcing me to look up at him. His lips kissed mine forcefully as if he had waited years to do this. It wasn't unpleasant as you would think, instead it was passionate. I felt like electricity was running through my body.  My fingers curled in his hair and he moaned against my lips.

I broke the kiss to breathe and my senses back to me. What the hell am I doing!? I kissed Logan and now Niall!? Well they kissed me but I shouldn't have let it go so far with Niall. I should have stopped and thought about my feelings.

Problem is I don't really know what my feelings are anymore.

'Evelyn?' Niall snapped me out of my trance and gave me a pleading look.

'I-i need to think. I'm sorry Niall.' I quickly left the booth and went to look for Jenna, maybe she can help.

Or not....

I had just spotted Jenna.... sitting on Louis's lap.... making out with him! At least someone's love life is working out. I guess she would get Louis, she was almost drooling over him yesterday.

***

I quickly found James since he was looking for me anyway.

'James, can you take me back to the house? Please?' I think he saw the need in my eyes because he led me outside and called a cab. He didn't say anything the entire way to the house.

I headed for the contestants house but James stopped me and led me to the judges house where he was staying with the band. He took me inside to his room and told me to wait there while he made some hot chocolate.

I looked around his room, it was a plain grest room with suitcases. The only things that showed who stayed here were the clothes strewn across the floor and a silver framed photo of Same Difference. Of Logan. I have no idea what I'm going to do about this whole thing! It's just to complicated to deal with alone!

James came back with two steeming mugs of hot chocolate, handed me one and sat down on the bed.

'I may not know you that well but I can see somethings wrong so why don't you tell big bro whats up?' I smiled faintly at the "big bro" quip.

'You can't tell any one, ok?' He nodded so I sat next to him on the bed.

'Logan kissed me after the show.'

'Finnally! He's been moping about you all the time!'

'Thats not the only thing thats bothering me. Niall kissed me at the club and I-'

He interupted me, 'Wait you kissed two guys in one night?'

'No, they kissed me! I didn't kiss them.' He nodded thoughtfully.

'Ok, who do you like then?'

'Thats the point, I'm not sure who I want to be with.' He pulled me into a hug.

'I'll be find, Evelyn. You just have to decide who you want to be with.'

'Thats acctualy really good advice James. Thanks, I guess your right.' He smiled, gave me a quick squeeze and released me from the hug.

'I think you should get some sleep. Want to stay here or go back to the contestant house?'

'Logan will be coming back here so I think I'll go back to the house. Thanks for listening.'

'Thats what big brothers are for.' He smirked.

'Yeah, yeah James, don't get cocky.'

He pouted, 'I'm always cocky.'

XOXO