"i forgot how it felt to be loved, to be happy, but mostly i forgot how you feel. how when you'd hold me i'd feel safe—how nothing could harm me. or that day in august, when i had an anxiety attack you brought me ice cream and held me. when we held hands i felt complete, the simple things you did made me happy. or just the stupid things we would say to each other. all the time i spent on you, staying up late, 6 hour phone calls, songs we shared, photos we took, pickup lines we made, quotes we found—all of it reminds me the old us, our blissful relationship. it wasn't perfect, i wasn't perfect, but i tried to be good for you and now i wonder..did you ever love me? honestly did you? they say "if it fails it wasn't love" so the truth speaks then huh, we weren't in love. i was so stupid to let you in again, figuratively speaking—i gave you the key to my heart after you threw away the first one, you gave me so much pain; now, now it's your turn to hurt"
love alyssa
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Romanceit started with the girl who fell in love with the boy in her math class. - [completed]
