Let You Down(Andy Biersack Sequel)

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"I think I'm going to go back to my room." I say almost falling asleep, this movie is boring. I don't know what it is or why we're watching it but we are and its boring.

"Everything will be okay, I promise." He says giving me a hug. 

"Okay, love you." I whisper stepping out of the room.

"Love you too." He replies as I close the door behind me.

I get back to my room and slowly open the door. I make my way in and softly shut the door behind me so I don't disturb the silence in the room. I shuffle as quietly as I can over to the bed to see no Andy. Why would I think he'd be here? I bite my lip to stop the tears that are welling in my eyes.

I wanted Andy to be here so he could say he was sorry for freaking out so I could say I was sorry for not telling him. I wanted him to hold me and kiss my forehead like he does when I'm upset. I want my baby more than anything. This thing growing inside of me has torn him away from me and I need him more than anything. I sit on the bed slowly not trusting my weak knees. The water works come again tears dropping down my face falling onto my lap.

I'm at that point where I want nothing more then to drink, sleep, and drink some more. I've been sober for what is it, 4 years? I don't even remember. All I want is to feel that feeling again, that feeling of the warm liquid stinging my throat as it went to my stomach, the poisons going through my blood stream making everything seem, making everything blurry and making the pain disappear. But I can't drink, the baby inside of me would suffer from things I couldn't put it through. The baby inside of me. I look down to the little bump. Whether I like it or not I'm having this baby, I may be reluctant of it but I can't help but to feel a little excited. Even though Andy is angry and might be for a while its still his and i's baby and he's the only one I'd want it to happen with.

***

"Seya." A voice whispers shaking me from my fretful dreams. I dig my face further into the pillow, even if I don't like the dream I still want to sleep.

"Come on, we're going out. Please wake up." The voice says. I turn a bit to see Chris sitting on the bed beside me.

"No." I grumble out and roll over.

"I will carry you." He says obviously trying to threaten me.

"Do it." I mumble. Mere seconds later I'm lifted from the bed, ugh.

"Christopher." I groan out wrapping my arms and legs around him.

"I told you I'd carry you." He replies walking out of the room. He walks for what feels like forever, me slowly slipping back into sleep until I hear voices talking.

"Can you guys not." I mumble burying my face into Chris's neck.

"Come on Seya, don't be a butt face." I hear Rick say. I hold up my hand and flip him off. I hear him gasp making me smile. Chris pretends to drop me almost giving me a heart attack.

"You awake now?" He replies with a smirk.

"Yeah, fuck you." I reply and remove my legs from him letting them land on the ground. I turn around to be faced with Devin, Rick, and Joshua. 

"So you got me out of my room, now what do you want?" I grumble pulling down my sweats a bit since they had risen up my waist. 

"Don't be grumpy, dear." Devin says throwing his arm over my shoulder pulling me towards him. I grumble in reply. Did I mention it's been about four days since what happened? No? Well Andy came back, didn't say a word left almost as soon as he came. Yeah, talk about heart breaking moment. 

"We're going to go eat food since its Christmas Eve then we're going to going to give each other our presents!" Josh says excitedly.

"I don't have any presents, I didn't go shopping." I say and cross my arms.

"Well, then you can just buy me things I want!" Ricky says excitedly making me roll my eyes and smile. I grab Chris and Devin's hands and nod telling them that they can start walking. 

***

"Oh my gosh, I don't think I've ever seen you eat this much!" Josh says as I eat another fry. I glare at him, oh how much I'd like to say "you try being pregnant" but Chris doesn't know nor does Ricky.

"Hey Chris, we need to talk later." I say wiping my fingers on a napkin, can you guess what we are eating? If you guessed chicken wings, you're right!

"Uh, what about?" He questions raising a drawn on eyebrow. 

"Uh," I look to Josh then Devin, they give me curious looks, you two know dumb butts "I'll tell you later." I say looking back at him.

"No tell him now, I wanna know!" Ricky says. Ugh sometimes Olson. I bite my lip and look over at Devin. He gives me a nod of what I'm guessing is encouragement.

"Uh, well I'm pregnant." I mumble. Chris's eyes go wide along with Ricky's. An awkward silence surrounds us making a weight fall onto my shoulders.

"Excuse me." I say quietly and push out of my chair. I make my way to the bathroom just in time for the tears to start falling. Chris looked almost disappointed. How am I supposed to cope with being a disappointment to him? I love him almost as much as I love Andy and then I don't want to be disappointment to both.

"Oh my god, Seya? Are you okay?" I look up to see Shayla, oh my god Shayla.

"Shayla, what're you doing here?!" I almost yell and engulf her in a giant hug.

"I'm here on a date with Ash. What are you doing here and why are you crying baby girl?" She asks quietly.

"I'm pregnant." I breathe out quietly. 

"SEYA WHAT?!" She yells and pulls back from the hug. I nod, more tears plummeting down my face.

"Oh my gosh." She says then smiles instantly.

"Oh my god!" She squeals and grabs me tightly.

"Yay." She whispers into my ear. I can't help but smile at this and let out a giggle.

"Oh my goodness, we need to talk! Its been so very long! Call me when you get back to your hotel! I love you!" She says and hugs me tightly, quickly, then skips out of the room.

The smile sticks on my fave as I splash water over my features. I sigh and and turn to the door. When I step out I get pulled into a chest. 

"I'm happy for you." They whisper. The voice I then realize is Chris's. 

"Andy doesn't think its his." I whisper and choke back a sob.

"He doesn't matter at this minute, we'll worry about him later. Let's go get you some dessert." He says almost excitedly.  I laugh lightly, gosh I hate hormones. I pull back from Chris's chest and look up at him.

"I've missed you, a lot. I've missed talking to you, I miss-"

"Shh!" He says loudly and drags me back to the table.

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