The Shitty Author's Spam Book

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Honestly, I don't know anymore. I feel like I'm just not good enough all the time it's not just at night when I start thinking. I feel like my story is complete shit and I think I'm failing science because I haven't turned in much of the work.

I just don't think I'm good enough. I can't even show my mum something I drew because I know she'll just glance at it and say something sounding uninterested. My mum is just getting sad again and I'm thinking about dying again but I don't want to hurt anyone.

I don't remember where or when I heard it but there's this quote that says "suicide does not get rid of the pain, it only passes it on to someone else" and that's honestly what's keeping me here.

I've been listening to Cars And Telephones by Arcade Fire on repeat for 3 hours now. That's a great song btw you should check it out.

Anyways I'm sorry if p.s. has been complete shit. I just haven't been feeling like writing because of school and my family. But I promise I'll try to update more often and I have a new story idea saved in my drafts. I'll start on it once I finish p.s.

Is it bad that I seriously consider fanfiction a coping skill? I hope not.

Bye peanut jellies have a nice
day/night I'm going to finish my homework now.