I still love you. It hits me like a brick wall when I least expect it. I can be making my favorite foods after having a great day and when I go to eat it, I can't stand the taste. I can be doing my favorite things and I will cry because I wish you were there with me. All of the moments we ever spent together, the good and the bad, were the best moments of my life. And I always took it for granted because I thought I wouldn't have to let them go. I never thought I would have to let you go. Even though we hurt each other in terrible ways, I still would rather have you in my life. I would rather stick by your side forever than have to start over again and again. Whenever I see you drive past me or I drive past you, my heart beats out of my chest. My stomach drops to my feet. I choke on my breath and I can't swallow. You have such an enormous effect on me and you have no idea. I miss you at the most inconvenient times. But you could never do anything to inconvenience me. Because you are perfect to me. You are wonderful. I see past the negative things you say and I give you more and more chances. But that's okay, right? Because that's what you do when you love someone. And I wish you loved me the way I love you.
