Enticing (Harry Styles AU) #Wattys2016

Chapter 61

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Roses-James Arthur

Author's Note:

Hey guys so I wasn't going to update again but I felt like I had to. I just received one of the saddest news of my life. One of my best friends past away today, well this Christmas morning. I didn't realize sooner cause I didn't have my phone.

Anyways, I wanted to just post this update and dedicate it to him because...he was amazing. He was always the man with a plan, if he wanted something he went out to get it no matter the odds. I admired him so much for that and I only hope to be at least half as courageous as him.

Thank you Cristobal, for being the best friend that anyone could hope for. Thank you for all of the laughs and love you gave me. I'll never forget our middle school dance when you asked one shy girl with glasses to the dance floor. I'll never forget the time when one of my relationships faltered...in a very bad way...and you went right over and beat the kid and repeatedly told me I was beautiful and deserved better. I'll never forget you telling me George Lopez jokes to make me stop crying cause you knew he was my favorite comedian. I'll never forget the laughs I would have when you would curse at a cardinals football game when they would loose and I had no idea what was going on.

Thank you for being my rock and protector and most of all thank you for the service you gave to our country. You were taken too soon buddy but at least now you are protecting at the gates of heaven. I love you so much and I'll miss you forever. R.I.P Cris ❤😭🙏🏻

Ryder's POV

I swallow, my audible cries now at a stop, but a few tears still ran down my cheeks.

I look up at Harry and mutter, "I don't want you to let me go either."

Harry blinks at me, as I nervously bite on my lower lip. Grasping his hands to pull them off my face, I take a step back.

I have to tell him the truth.

I sigh and turn around walking a few steps away from Harry while anxiously fiddling with my fingers at my sides as I turn my back towards him.

"Ryder what's the matter?" Harry mutters, concerned. "I thought you forgave me? I thought-"

"I do it's just...you-" I pause.

Ugh, he is going to hate me.

"Ryder what's wrong? Tell me, I-"

"I'm sorry." I breath, interrupting him as fresh tears coarse down my cheeks. I turn my body around to face him and his face falls, taking in my sudden sad expression from earlier, as his eyes gazed at me intently.

"I- I kissed Gavin." I admit, taking in a shaky breath.

"I'm sorry." I add quickly, watching his expression change as he blinks at me and his lips part."We had dinner and I had a bit of too much wine, but I stopped before we did anything else."

"I promise that's all we did. I love you and I'm sorry." I shake my head, a nauseous feeling rising from the pit of my stomach and up my throat as Harry remains mute and just continues to stare at me.

"I know I shouldn't be one to talk cause I messed up too but I just...I wanted to get drunk cause I couldn't forget about you." I continue trying to ease my uneasiness and probably give Harry something to respond to, cause as the slow seconds tick by at him not saying anything is torturous.