Enticing (Harry Styles AU) #Wattys2016

I Need To Say This

Hello my loves!! How are all of you doing today? Sorry to disappoint the one's that thought this was an update, I promise I will update soon. 

Today, I have been thinking a lot lately, just trying to get a new perspective on things and one of the things that I was thinking about was about success. I have seen so many people, including myself at times, who just choose to give up on their dreams, or not do something that they really are thirsty for doing because it seems impossible or unattainable. It makes me really sad that some people feel like they should do that because most people nowadays when they go to university or college they choose a quick career field so they can start working and saving up money quickly and although it seems more logical, it also seems wrong to me. I just dont understand why someone would waste time in studying something or doing something that they know won't even make them happy. 

Take me for example, at times I do feel like a loser cause all of my friends are still at university getting their degrees in a certain medical or teaching field, while I am here just taking things day by day. I did go to college for a while and I did a small medical program but I didn't bother going any further up in the medical field cause I felt it wasn't for me. Sometimes I do get embarrassed when people ask me what I'm doing when I bump into them on the street and I say that I'm not in college, like a small part of me feels bad but I shouldn't feel bad at all. I don't think that's how life should be. I know it didn't make me happy so I did not continue. 

I think people should be able to do and say what they want without feeling self doubt and scared of what people's opinions will be. 

Anyways, the reason why all this came up was because I was cleaning my bedroom today and I found one of my old binders from high school for my honors English class. Inside, I found an assignment were we had to do a short story and in this assignment I got an "A". I was so happy, not because of the grade, but because it was the first good grade I received from that teacher because he would always right bad notes all over my work. But, this time around he wrote a note saying that it was very well written, that he didn't expect my work to be so well put together and detail oriented. He also said that when he flipped to the last page he was sad that it ended cause it felt like he was reading an actual book and this assignment is the thing my mind brings up when I feel doubtful about my writing here on Wattpad. At times, I do feel like it's a waste cause i feel like not that much people are noticing it but for some reason that note from my teacher pops into my head and a voice says to just keep on going, that things are slow now but it will pick up. 

My dream is to write a book, I have always had my nose stuffed into black inked printed pages and it's something that I really want to do. At times, I feel like I should just give up, that my goal is impossible to reach but though, as much as I try I always find myself back on my phone writing new drafts for my story, or writing brief poems in my journal. Writing gives me peace, it makes me happy and I just don't understand why people want to take that away from me. I mean who says i can't do it? I mean all of the famously known author's out there started out with just ideas written in their beat up notebook, or on the edge of a coffee stained napkin.Anyways, I guess what i'm trying to say is that when ever you do feel like life is hard, that the thing you want to achieve is so far away just remind yourself why you even started.

I'm sorry for such a long ramble and I'm sorry if any of this didn't make sense but I just felt like I had to share my thoughts with you guys. I love you all so much and every single comment, inbox message, dedication, drawing that you guys send me means the world to me and I am truly lucky to have all of you by my side. Please know that everything I do, everything I post on here is for you guys, for you all to feel something and to let you know that I am here if any of you are having a rough time. 

Thank you for listening!

Love Always and Forever,

Nataly xoxo