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Uh

I'm too tired to say ugh, so I shall say uh.
I've said this a million times already but I'm so lonely. And I understand that I could go to my friends for comfort and everything, but..I'd rather not(?).
I don't necessarily like hugs, that's why I don't willing give people hugs, it's like an awkward one arm thing?
And I don't like being touched, I hate being poked.
And I hate people touching my hair, that's why I don't let anyone braid my hair.
I hate being assumed that I act a certain way and like certain things.
I hate being judged too.
I don't really go to friends cuz I need a more of an intimate relationship to open up and be myself and know that I can trust them.
Plus I like to separate my friends from my personal life. Not that I don't trust them, I just believe there's certain people in my life for certain knowledge.
And ohhhh my godddddd I hate it when people take my pencil or my book or whatever and don't give it back to me when I ask for it. Like, that's so damn childish, I have no time for that shit.
I hate it when people decide it's okay for them to take my food. We may be friends, but if I wanted to share food I would ask if you wanted some.
I hate spoilers. If I wanted to know something I would ask.
I hate it when one person gets started about why their lives suck or something and people turn it into a competition. Yes, it sucks, your pain is valid, but sometimes I feel that if I interjected and told them the shit that's happened to me it would blow them out of the water.
I'm a complicated personnnnnn