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So I Thought

I thought I was over it. I really did. But then I discovered something I probably wasn't meant to see. And here I am. Crying. Realizing that I didn't get over it, that what I actually did was distract myself. I threw myself and my time into work, into homework, into friends, into books, art, clubs, etc, until I had no time left to stop and think. To fully allow myself to ponder upon it. Until now. Until this moment where tears are running down my face, my cheeks, leaving stinging trails that pave the path for future water flows. I would give anything to reverse time, to go back and redo my life, make things different and to hold on. I thought it was the right thing, I didn't realize what it really was. It's hard to replace a legend with a myth.