Diary. I guess...

Lie

Have you ever felt like you trust someone with your life. All your secrets. Your mental state. Everything.

I know i have.

You might not have known the person for very long but you still trust them. Almost too much. I am that kind of person. I trust people too easily and I always get hurt. The person I trust might not mean to, 

but it always happen.

I could have a really bad day and that person might be with their family or doing homework. My day can get 10x worse if they don't answer, but after I'm sad I get mad because they promised to be there for me. They weren't. I forget that they have their own lives. 

I feel like they lied to me.

Many people think I'm though. I would say I am, but on the inside I'm so fragile. When people break trough the shell, I'm so easy to hurt. I don't think they understand that. I need the same loving words they do.

That I mean something to them.

That they would swim over oceans for me.

That they would live for me.

When I lay there in bed. Ready to cry. The only thing I need is a.
Hi.
From the right person and I will feel better. Would be even more great to get to cuddle that person. Have them whisper loving things in my ear.

It won't happen.

Because that person lives in another city and it makes me want to cry. All I want to do is be close to that person. Feel their warmth. Breath their sent.

I really hope I get to meet them some day.

Best gift in the world: to meet them.
Kiss those fantastic lips.
Kiss those cute cheeks.
Kiss the eyelids that cover those beautiful eyes.
Hug their warm body.
Just to be near.

But in the end it still feels like they lied. When they can't even send you a Hi and try to make you feel at least okay. 

That's when it hurts the most.

2016-09-30