He Knows.

Chapter 15: incognito

Running. Why I chose to run away, don't ask me. Hell I can't even run for two minutes straight non stop. So why on earth did I choose to run!

I ran. And ran. Until I got behind the baseball field. I starting walking then. Well stopped and decided that I should take a breather. I mean c'mon now who else wouldn't need a breath before hiding.

I made it to the back of the school parking lot. Where all the jocks cars were at. Some cheer leaders too. I looked over after I heard some fowl noises and found a couple lip locking behind a BMW. Me being me rolled my eyes and made a too loud of gruff. "Hey fuck you! You don't have to watch you know!" I heard the cheer leader yell. I looked down and fast paced away. No way in hell am I getting chased by two love birds!

I sighed as I made it toward these girls locker room. I walked in and say on the bench about to take my Algebra two homework out. But wait. I fucking left it. "Stupid stupid stupid." I repeated smacking my forehead.

I felt my phone go vibrate in my skinny Jeaned pocket.

-u can come out now. Practice is over

-ill meet u at ur car

-I hve ur bag n shit so hurry up

Why the fuck is he so grumpy for?

I rolled my eyes and snuck out of the locker room hoping to be unnoticed by any jocks who say me miserably fail at the attempt of a push up.

"Took you long enough." "Whatever. Just hurry up and take me home."

"You know I still don't get why you bitched out and ran away." "Maybe because I don't need your freakin' help." "Look all I was trying to do was help you!" "Well like I said I don't need fucking help!"

Jason stopped the car and glared at me. "Listen I don't appreciate the fucking yelling in my car. If you want to yell at me you can get the fuck out." "Fine bye." I slammed the car door and walked away. "Get in the fucking car Tori." I heard Jason say through the rolled down window. "Nope. Like you said I can get the fuck out. And I did. Now go away. Drive. Bye."

"Son of a bitch." I heard Jason mutter and park his car. "What are you doing." "You wanna yell at me. Fine, fucking express your hatred toward me." I rolled my eyes, "Jason..." "No Tori spit it out!" "..." "C'mon! Say it!" "Jason.-" I couldn't finish my sentence because Jason's lips smashed onto mine.

My first kiss. My first kiss is with Jason. Do I kiss back! Before I could respond Jason already had his lips off of mine.

Silence.

Nothing said after that. I walked back to his car and got in.

Silence.

Nothing more awkward if you ask me. I sat there fidgeting my thumbs tracing the pattern of the stitch on my jeans.

"Tori."

"Tori tell me what you're thinking."

"Say something. Anything for Christ sakes Tori yell at me!"

"You...you were my first kiss." I said with hooded eyes. "Fuck." He breathed exasperated. "I-I didn't mean to...it didn't happen okay." I nodded my head solemnly. Tears started to prickle my eyes. Why am I feeling...rejected.

I mean I should have known that a stupid kiss wouldn't mean anything."

My lips are no longer virgin.

"Tori are you okay.... Hey don't cry." He cooed into my eye. I didn't even realize the tears were pouring out of my my eyes until I heard my own crys.

God I'm such a baby.

"Tori I'm sorry. I didn't mean to." I shook my head with tears streaming down my face. That's the problem. He didn't mean to.

"Just drive." I croaked. "I-" "Drive." I snapped.

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When I stepped inside my house I didn't go straight to my mom. I ran straight into my room. I slid down my door and buried my head in my knees.

How humiliating. I'm crying because I just kissed the guy of dreams.

Pathetic. That's all I see myself as. I'm crying over the guy I 'loved' a couple months ago kissed me.