The vampire's maid

Chapter 69

Hearing the screams of Victoria, my body relaxes and I sit down on the chair.

I close my eyes and smile to myself while thinking about all the ways how I could kill that b*tch.

I get so carried away that only the bang of my door drags me back to reality. I open my eyes and stare at Johnathan with a questioning look.

He stands there breathlessly and I can't help but feel worried. I get up not breaking eye contact. "What's wrong?"

Without answering my question he comes closer and closer but instead of saying anything he grabs me and pulls me closer to himself. He grabs my hair on the back of my head while his other hand is placed around my waist and kisses me.

It takes a while for me to realize what he is doing. And when I do I feel shocked. Why did he do that... Again?

I break the kiss and push him away. Looking in his eyes a flash of hurt seems to appear but before he can do anything else I slap him across the face.

"What the hell were you thinking?" I yell at him.

I-I don't know what else to do, ok? On one hand he is my mate, god that's so weird to say... But on the other hand he is nothing but a bipolar ass who has been treating me like sh*t.

Still not answering he pulls me closer again and looks me deep in the eyes. "Nothing and too much." He smashes his lips against mine for a brief moment again. "I am sorry though. But not for kissing you."

First not knowing what to do or to say I just keep staring at him for a moment.

Letting it sink in I start yelling at him. "What the hell?" I punch him and try to get him away from me but he isn't moving, not even flinching. "Why can't you just let me go?"

"You're the one who promised me to stay with me."

"I died. I am dead. I promised you to stay for the rest of my life which means I am free to go."

"Then go." He says blankly.

Not knowing if he is serious I ask "Are you serious?"

"Of course not." He says before letting out a laugh. "Like you said, you will stay for the rest of your life."

"Yes and I am dead." I state.

"No you're not." He sighs. "That's what I have to tell you."

"What have you done?" I whisper.

He finally lets go of me and turns around. "You wanted me to kill you." He now looks at me again. "But I couldn't do that." He touches my face and smiles. "I did some research and when you were sleeping I let a witch bring you back. You're alive, Amanda."

"H-how?" I stutter. I feel tears building but I won't let them fall. "Why?"

He takes off my necklace to prove that I actually am alive. Now I know why I was feeling differently when I woke up.

"I'm sorry but I couldn't-"

"But I was dead already!" I yell at him, slapping the necklace away. "All you had to do was to let me free! Why did you bring me back? I have no reason to live."

Looking hurt he hands me a knife. "If you really don't have a reason to live on, go on and kill yourself. If you want to die, I can't stop you but I won't be the one to take your life. You mean to much to me."

I stare at the knife that is now pointing at my chest.

What the hell do I do?

I don't want to live but I can't kill myself either. I just can't.

But I have to be strong. Just one last time I have to be strong.

I look at him and smile. I breathe in and close my eyes. I open again but now his are closed and what I see tears me apart. A single tear is running down his cheek.

I let the knife drop to the floor, throw my arms around his neck and smash my lips against his. Clearly surprised my actions he takes a second before kissing me back and hugging me.

"I'm so sorry, Amanda." He whispers, breaking the kiss.

I open my eyes and smile at him. "I am sorry too, John."

I am so sorry but I still can't tell you. I finally have you back, I finally am with you again but I can't tell you.

I don't think I will ever be able to tell you.

When you do find out... I hope you will be able to forgive me.
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