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Wearing My Demons On The Outside But Still No New Healthier Outcomes = Stigma & Discrimination
Suffering and living with your demons given from your depression is never something anyone would ask for in any scenario.

But me, I'm just here at home celebrating my 20th birthday (in which I was expecting to celebrate it this way, still being depresssed and suffering in silence and not being heard and understood by my own parents and sister).

At lunch yesterday, I had my electronics token away for the day because some of the texts I had sent my best friend while she was still recovering from food poisoning from my birthday celebration at The Keg on Saturday night; were not smart because I shared what my parents told me that they didn't like her and wished I'd never met her and other things too and that they didn't trust me with electronics.

And in which I was able to contact (by email) my case worker who I use for help in gaming a job (VPI, careeer specialist) who called 911 and gave them as much info that I gave her to the police officers. They arrived around 3pm yesterday and lasted a little while and someone (I don't know who called my mom) to come home.

And that really got their attention. I honestly didn't want it to get that far to make that kind of decision to get their attention more but I didn't get much good results from that except learning about a great source called "COAST" that's great support for those suffering with mental illness.

I decide to continue trying to get them to view mental illness and the mental health epidemic (but they don't believe that it's an epidemic and that I can just forget about my condition and overall mental health). But they continue to not get it no matter how many times I try to explain it in different wording.

I honestly don't know what else to try to educate them that their reliable sources are not reliable in our new digital generation as for there are new updates and changes to the mental health epidemic for all the stigma and discrimination around it. Theres still so much misunderstandings from so many people out in our world that are still stubborn in supporting their loved ones, friends, family, co-workers on their mental health conditions with the new and updated reliable sources.

I Wear My Demons On My Sleeve

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This post really is worded to the key for what is being misunderstood for me in my whole situation in my mental health recovery, condition and silenced suffering.

I'm honestly struggling to find a better way to educate my parents on this epidemic overall my mental health condition (one being that once I've regained myself and feel recovered from my relapse, I still have to live with it). I can't just forget about it and move on like that. I have already after working on my recovery before my relapse, of not letting my mental health condition define me nor be ashamed of it anymore from the stigma most particularly.

And second, recovery is not gonna be perfect. So many people don't expect people like their family and friends to be perfect but yet they still expect their addictions and illness recoveries to be perfect. I'm not sorry to say that that does not make sense in any logical way.

Along with the recovery process, you have to trust the process and respect that you will have slip ups, relapses and times when you give in to that urge, bad habit or resist any negative, old thinking or mental habit.

I'm noticing I'm fearing the stigma more than I thought I would be. I honestly don't know what to do or think. My mind is mostly and pretty much blank and empty. Other than some things that I'm somehow easily able to think of but the rest is either a blur, easily lost or forgotten. Yet my parents continue to misunderstand the real and reliable logic from the reliable sources of why they aren't responding, supporting, respecting, accepting and viewing the whole issue itself including the epidemic as well.

Demi Lovato is living proof that you can live a normal and empowered life with mental illness.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. – Dr. Seuss

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Why can't everyone just educate themselves and realise how much real harm their words are actually doing?

Guns aren't the only killer weapon for suicide, words are too. Choosing the wrong words can trigger suicidal thoughts and those suffering to act on them by leading them to holding the gun and pulling the trigger.

Don't let it get to that, please. You don't realise how much real harm you are doing to your friends, family, loved ones and co-workers. Make the right choice and make things right before its too late. Put your beliefs, judgments and your current mindset aside and try helping those suffering before the suffering beats you first.
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Untreated mental illness can lead to suicide, substance abuse and long term medical issues.