Two Different Feelings.

Chapter 12 - Keeping Up "I'm trying to love you"

           Ever wondered why people lie? Yes sometimes its because its the only thing they could do to keep their asses safe for something they did, but in my case its because its the only thing I can do. The darkness grew thicker and thicker with every day that passes, nobody has been able to stop my eyes from doing what it always does now. It's something I just can't stop now, for killing someone that meant everything to me is like pulling out your heart and saying you're okay with it. Maybe she treated me like shit at times but she was the only friend I had when I didn't have any. Its confusing I understand that but people would get the idea sooner or later. 

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  RING RING RING RING 

"urgh" it was morning and I didn't even want to get out of bed. My eyes opened in a flash and while sitting up I looked around. *this isn't my bedroom, why am I in mom's room?* I looked at my hands and I couldn't believe what I was looking at. They were covered in some red liquid, could this be blood? Did I kill someone again? This was crazy, I couldn't remember one thing from last night, all I remembered was handing my parents a drink and after that everything went blank. I got to my feet and looked at my surroundings. There was no scene of murder but why were my hands covered in this? 

"Mom? Mom?! Mom where are you?" No answer. I couldn't have killed my parents, thats crazy. I began to cry and ran to the living room. There was no signs of my parents, I let out a screamed and suddenly felt someone grab me from my waist, I was being hugged. One sniff and I knew exactly who it was. He hugged me and I felt safe. Kenny was somehow always finding a way to find me before I totally lost it, Riley jokes around saying that he was stalking me but I didn't care if he was because when I'm around him, nothing bad happens to me. 

"Did I kill someone?" I tried to stay calm but the thought of my parents dead was something I didn't want to imagine. He held me tighter and took a breath in. "I did, didn't I?" I immediately started to cry, how can I not remember what I did, why do I keep breaking down like this but also why is it as if Kenny knew exactly what happens. He looked down at me and kissed me, his lips felt warm but mines were still shivering, his hands grabbed my waist tighter and pulled me in closer. This guy right here knew what made me feel better but I wouldn't be safe even if I had 10 million people covering me because I would zone out and eventually kill everyone there. 

    We were at the park and I couldn't stop looking at Lucas while he talked to Kenny. He was trying to act cool but I saw him look over at least twice. Maybe he couldn't even comprehend that I didn't love him anymore and that I officially hated him or he's afraid that I would end up killing him aswell. Riley hopped over the bench and sat next to me. She smiled and handed me a folded piece of paper. Puzzled I unfolded it and all it said was chester. "Who's chester?" 

"The big scary guy that lives in your house." I laughed at the dramatic way she spoke, Riley has been checking every mood of our new enemy. Supposedly she thinks he's controling me somehow and making me kill people but like I told her before I'm not being controlled and this isn't an episode of Teen Wolf. 

"You honestly need to stop the obsession over this guy" I said laughing 

"I'm not obsessed, I just think he's really weird and that he murders innocent people" 

*Gasp* "Maybe he's sacificing them" Kenny said joking around. Riley glared at him then looked at me, I didn't really notice she was looking at me confusing because I was staring at Lucas. He was just standing there texting but even by doing that he caught my attention. 

She starting waving her hand in front of me "earth to Isabel, hey come back" 

"Yeah, what were we saying?" Kenny looked at me then back at Lucas. He looked mad but then he smiled at me which made me blush.