Dear diary, which twin am i falling for.. (WATTY AWARDS)

Chapter Seven

Matthew's POV

Last night was stupid, i didnt mean any of the stupid words that came out of my mouth, i just wish Ashley would believe that. I get really protective over her, i know that. But i cant help it, ive always been like it. Especially when she's flirting and/or having it off with guy's she's only just met. I know i sound like her dad here, but i need to know that whoever she's in love with will treat her right, if she ends up heart broken, i'd be the one feeling guilty. 

I decided i was gonna go round to see her, to tell her everything and apologize for acting like a d*ck. And i dont just mean last night, i know ive been like it a while. Obviously saying that i was gonna go round was a million, trillion, zillion times easier than actually growing the balls to walk to her house, knock on the door and spill everything. ERGH.

After persuading myself a million times, i finally had the courage to go round.

She opened the door, she was wearing her scruffy clothes, with food down the side of one leg, and her hair looked like she'd been dragged through a hedge backwards. And even then, she was perfect. I got everything out, telling her how amazing she is and everything, but when i asked if i'd lost her forever, she answered with a 'yes, you have lost me forever'.
My throat tightened up as she closed the door on me, i felt like this big wall i'd spend years building up with memories, secrets, 'had to be there moments' and tears had all came crashing down, and i was underneath everything.

I walked back home, seeing kids messing about on the streets together, made me realise im not a kid anymore, and that killed me.

I rung ashley's mobile.
-No answer
-No answer 
-No answer
-No answer

She must really be holding it this time. I couldn't get her off my mind. 

If i thought things couldnt get any worse, i was wrong. I looked down at my vibrating phone..
-Aaron calling- ergh, this is just too perfect! 

I answered my phone, dreading the reason he was calling me.

'What d'you want aaron?'

'Oh hey! long time no speak, hows things over there in the sunny village of perfect?' This was the first time i'd heard him speak in 2 years, and he still sounded like the cocky, arrogant prick he did back then.

'No, really aaron, what do you want?' i replied, Aaron never wanted to ''just talk'' 

'In all seriousness? i thought mum and dad might be missing me, decided im gonna pop down sometime maybe?'

'Aaron, f*ck off! you dare come back here after everything that went off, and i swear to god, i will make you wish you never did' 

'Hahah' he laughed slyly.. 'I take that as an invitation bro!' 

The phone went dead. Was he really gonna make my life even more miserable by coming back here, or was he just doing it to wind me up? Knowing aaron, probably both. 

I hardly ever got along with my brother, actually maybe that was an understatment. We NEVER got along. He wanted what i wanted, and i wanted what he wanted. But now come to think of it, it was just a sick game played by two teenagers. He was a firstclass prick. 

My hands went into fists as i thought about what he did to me 'back then'. I had to take a few deep breaths to calm down. I swear i need to go to an anger management class or something.

But what i did know was that if he came here, he would take her. The person who i would die for, the person who i've hurt. I cursed myself, i couldn't get her off my mind no matter how hard i tried.

I thought i'll try and ring her again. But of course there was no awnser.

I was walking now, remembering her face when she said them last five words to me. It squeezed my heart memorising it. The seriousness in her voice, the way her eyes turned watery like she would just break down any second, but she stayed strong. 

It took me all my energy not to turn back and grab her with both of my hands and tell her that she wasn't going to break this thing of between us, that i wouldn't let her. What the f*ck was i saying? I mean break our bestfriend ship off. But i knew she needed time, but i couldn't help think that maybe that time was for her to forget about me.

I felt a tear drop from my cheek. WHAT THE HELL!

I forcefully wiped my hand over my eyes, i never cry. 

'I will get her back' i whispered to myself. 

I tried ringing her again, i didnt care if i looked like an obsessive freak. PLEASE ANSWER. 

But it didn't even ring. Maybe shes changed her number, i gripped the phone tight in my hand and ran back to her house. I needed to speak to her. I needed to sort this out.

I was nearly at her house, when i heard her beautiful laugh and someone elses, it sounded like Hannah's. I was right. She was there in a pair of skinny black jeans that made her arse look super hot! i rolled my eyes, why am i staring at my besfriends arse. I was hid behind a bush now, trying to hear what they was saying.

'SOOOO, what are you wearing this weekend?' i heard Hannah chirp happily whilst walking slowly towards her car. What was happening this weekend? 

I heard Ashley laugh sweetly, 'i'm not to sure, but definitely something a bit longer then last time!'

I felt a rush of anger come over me, not only because of an image of what she was wearing in front of all them men popped up in my head, but because she was going out again. I felt a swarm of jelousy come over me. It's like she didn't even remember our fight, here she was planning on going out and here i am crying over it.

'Just don't tell Matthew this time, i think he will freak if he knew where you are going!' I heard a growl escape from me. I needed to find out where they was going. 

But the words that were about to escape from Ashleys mouth hurt me more then i ever thought they would. 'Matthew who?'

'That's my girl!' They both laughed as they jumped in the car and took off. 

I gasped. Maybe i have lost her forever. I felt the tears i was holding back, come out. But i didn't care that i was crying. Not if the girl i was crying over was her.

Hello, this is just a simple chapter just to show you Matthews POV! What do you think about Aaron finially popping in..kinda? hope use liked it. please comment and vote! :-)