The Irish Teacher ( Colifer story ) #wattys2016

The poisionous lover

I stop outside my apartment door, it's currently 10am. I'm hoping Sebastian's gone to work.

I've been walking and walking, I just didn't.. didn't know how to tell him.

I mean sure it's easy to tell Someone you're carrying their child but this is different... very different.

I unlock the door, taking my coat off to reveal his pyjamas. I turn around noticing Sebastian, I try grabbing my coat but it's no use.

'I know you was with him last night.'

I tightly close my eyes before turning around to face him.

'Seb-'

'Why was you with him?'

'Let me-'

'Was you fucking him?'

'No.' I slightly laugh walking over to the unit.

'Was you fucking him!'

'I told you, no.'

'Well what was you doing there?'

'Just talking-'

'When you got changed into his pyjamas or afterwards?'

I switch on the kettle, turning back to face him.

'Seb, you've got it all wrong. I know how it looks, believe me I do. You have to trust me-'

'Well I don't.'

'S-' I try

'In fact, you've never been in love with me. You've always seen me as second best, made do with what you could have. You've always love him.'

'Seb!' I walk towards him grabbing his hands

'I love you. I told you this-'

He pulls his hands away.

'Did he tell you he still loved you? Is that why you went round... to admit you felt the same way?'

'No. I know how he feels but I love you. Just let me explain?'

'So he does love you...' I sit down.

'Sebastian-'

'Explain. Why was you there-'

I open my mouth.. I can't, suddenly my lips are dry. The words suffocating amongst themselves.

'I-'

'Tell me?'

'I.. I.. I can't.'

He laughs.

'And I thought I was the one who'd get caught first-'

'What do you mean?'

'Two can cheat Jennifer.'

My eyes fill, in moments I'm in tears.

'With Angela. She gave me the attention I deserved.. she didn't see me as a second option.'

He looks at me, his eyes dead. No feeling, no loss. No heartbreak.

'You cheated on me?' I sob.

'Just like you did with me.'

I get up.

'Get out!' I push his shoulders.

'Just get out!!'

'You're acting as if you're pure-'

'GET OUT!'

I yell hitting him now. Tears flooding my face.