I always knew Harry would have a place in my heart, the first day I met him. We're back in Australia now and It's been a month since my last interaction with Harry. I ended the relationship with Ashton and we kind of left on a weird note, he knew I still loved Harry and we both thought it would be for the best. I did something that I regret. I been, if I could go back in time and stop this from happening I would.
Flashback - Still in LA
I decided that I would go over to Ashtons place to get my things that I left at his house (Bra,tops,makeup...) Forgetting that he lives with the other boys. I knocked on the door to see the person I had been running from,Harry. I pushed past him to get my things that Ashton had already put on the bed leaving me a note saying 'May,I have put all your stuff in this bag and I'm on a date so I left Harry to your service, Talk to him this might be your last chance' I was sad to say but Ashton was right. I grabbed the bag heading into the front room and sat down. "I will listen to you Harry for 2 minutes, i'm only letting you talk because this might be the last time I see you and I mean it" I said watching as he sat down next to me. "May, the night we shared how we felt about each other then you saw me kissing that girl," A lump was rising in my throat "That was Cara and she went away on a modelling business and we both said we'd carry on our relationship after she gets back and when she arrived at the party I was mortified, She came in at the wrong timing" I felt a tear coming " I love her but I also love you and I had no way of choosing and when you left I thought, It was the easy way out and I took it" he carried on "Then when I saw you and Ashton together, that killed me inside, and when I asked you if you loved and you said yes, I knew that, that was how you felt when you saw me and Cara together and I was heartbroken that you felt that way, but realizing that, I realized that I love you" and with that I bursted out crying. Then we did something that I regret. We had sex. He kissed me and I kissed back missing his lips for so long how could I not. We then took it to the bedroom but after that night knowing I had just ruined a relationship killed me. Cara and Harry were meant to be, even if Harry didn't know that. I looked at him as he slept, What we had done was a mistake, I got changed and wrote Harry a note:
I love you Harry but what we did was wrong. I'm leaving today and we WON'T see each other again, this was a one night stand sharing how we felt about each other but knowing that I have destroyed a relationship kills me but what hurts me the most was that I knew you wanted Cara there and not me.
I left the room, kissing Harry's forehead. I met up with the boys at the airport and we headed back home to Australia.
Present
I sat on the toilet waiting for a beep, then the noise was made, I looked at the stick... I'm pregnant.
