I let Harry in since, I had a lot of explaining to do and he had a confession to make. It's my fault, I let him go and he's obviously moved on. We all walked into the front room; "This is my fault, If I didn't run away, Harry wouldn't of known" Louis whispered to me, knowing that was true, Harry had to know one day or another and I had to face that and face the fact he was the father of our children. Alfie and Darcy sat close beside me as Harry sat down facing us "Why didn't you tell me" Harry asked, I knew anger was in his voice, I looked over to Louis and he knew what I wanted him to do. "Come on kid's, who wants to go to the park?" he asked, as they soon walked out of the door. Confession time. "You had Cara" was all I said but he wasn't having any of it "But I could of had you!" he snapped. "Harry-" I started to shout but Harry interrupted me "You were so afraid, that I loved cara more than you, and you didn't realize, I was stood by your side and wanted you, that morning you left me hurt me so bad, I decided you wasn't worth my tears and you were the first girl to ever make me cry and probably the last" He shouted at me but sounded like he had a lump in his throat.
"Then tell me Harry, Why are you wearing an engagment ring, if you really loved me and not Cara, I'd be the one wearing the ring" I snapped at him, he looked at his feet "I did honestly love you Harry, I knew you wanted a daughter called Darcy and now you do and a son called Alfie, it kills me everyday to wake up and see their beautiful faces because even though I love them to bits, there a double of you" I cried, why am I crying? "I wish you had told me" he said still looking at the floor, "I didn't know Harry until a month later and By then I saw that your Career had started and you were still with Cara, you were just about to live your life, what would of happened if the next minuate I showed up at your door step pregnant? I wanted you to live and not be dragged down by a child, let alone twins" I said to Harry who was now heading to the door because he looked like he'd been crying "To be honest, I would of watched my children being born, I would of changed their dypers, I would of grown up with my children and most of all I would of been a father" he said before walking out the door; when he said that, I fell to the floor, what have I done, he's right he'd never get that time back with them. I'm such a horrible mother and I'd hurt the person I loved and the father of my children.
Next Day
"Morning Lou" I said looking at him, with his head on the table "What's wrong?" I asked sitting next to him, "I have to go on tour for 9 months, I'm going to miss the twins birthday" He said getting really upset. "Aww Lou, they'll still be 4 when you get back" I said as he walked upstairs probably to get his suitcase. The other boys ran downstairs with sad faces, "Whats wrong you guys" I asked as they looked on the floor "Um, well" Luke started "We have to go on tour for 6 months" Beau bursted out. Great, I was alone for 6 months. "Congratulations" I said with a fake smile "What your not mad" Daniel asked "Course not this is your dream, Live it while you can" I said hugging them "Thanks" James said as they all ran upstairs except Jai. "I'm sorry, that we have to leave you by yourself for so long, I wish you'd come with us but-" He stopped "No kids on the bus" I finished for him. We hugged and then Jai went to pack his suitcase. It was only 8;30 am and the kids were asleep for once. The boys were leaving all of them, "Bye, Love you" Alfie, Darcy and I shouted to them as they left for 6 months and 9 months for Louis. I had no one now.
2 hours later
I was running downstairs trying to catch the phone ringing because at that moment I was giving Alfie and Darcy a bath. "Hello" I said "Is this Miss Ann speaking" The man on the other end of the phone spoke "Yes, how may I help you" I asked "I'm with the police and I'm so sorry to tell you that your mother and sister have died in a car accident" My whole world stopped around me, I couldn't breath, the walls were closing on me "Miss, are you there" He kept saying throught the speaker "Are you ok, miss" He spoke again as I slid my back down the wall. How could this day get any worse, I have no one to talk to and I was alone now for good. I had no other relatives. "Miss, do you want me to call an ambulance" he asked "No, No i'm fine, just in shock" I finally spurted out and with that he hung up. I was alone and for good.
