Y/N's Pov:
I'd stopped crying for the mean time and I was writing down lyrics to a new song in my lyric book. This book means everything to me, I just right down my thoughts and turn it into a song and that's what I'm doing as of now. I'm writing about the fact Jade's moved on and I cant. I don't think I'll release this song, Its quite personal and I'd most likely end up breaking down on stage. Camila was on the end of my bed reading a book. She looked so focused, So I had to go to Snapchat. I started filming her as she read the book, The glasses fell down her face then she made some weird face and pushed them back up. I giggled and posted the video to snapchat. She looked up afterwards and smiled at me.
"Hello," She says then moves next to me. She gestures to my song book and smiles.
"Sing it to me," She pleads. I was hesitant at first but nodded. She squealed and passed me my guitar. I thanked her and placed it on my lap and started strumming the chords.
I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine
Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around
It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
At this point my eyes were filled with tears and my voice is starting to crack. The lyrics get to me obviously, I'm still in love with her. And I always will be.
If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
I now had tears streaming down my face and Camila squeezed my shoulder reassuringly.
'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at----
I started sobbing uncontrollably and Camila embraced me in a hug. I rested my head in her neck and cried onto her. I miss her so much its unbelievable.
"W-Why doesn't she love me anymore Camila!" I sobbed. Camila rubbed my arm.
"She does," She says. I shake my head and sob harder.
"N-No she doesn't! S-She's happy now," I sob.
"Where's you're proof she's fine with this Y/N?" Camila asks and pecks my forehead.
"P-Perrie told m-me," I say.
"For all you know Perrie could just be protecting Jade, They're bestfriends Y/N. Jade could be crying her eyes out just like you. Perrie could be saying that because you really hurt Jade Y/N, And she's most likely not healed because she loves you!" Camila says.
"J-Jade and I could still be together if I wasn't so stupid! Wh-Why did I mess everything u-up Mila? W-Why was I so scared for the future that I-I didn't appreaciate her and s-she left because I'm so stupid!" I say and cry harder.
"Y/N you're not stupid! You just made a stupid mistake but were human and its normal. One day Jade and you will be together again I know it. You just have to prove to Jade you love her!" Camila says. I nod and we lay down in my bed...
