Lust | Kian Lawley

Chapter 8

"What are you doing.." I whispered with chills running down my spine.

As he got closer, I could feel his hot breath breath on me.
My breathing hitched with very inch closer he got.

"Don't be scared" his soothing voice said.
"I'm not scared" I raised my voice.

With that last sentence, he grabbed me and pulled me closer to him to where our bodies were now pressed together. Both of his hands now on my head, making me look at him to where I could see the hint of light on his eyes, Kian.

He leaned in, his lips pressed on mine. I was filled with confusion.
Confusion of this kiss it was the same kiss I remember from the New Year's Eve party. What? How could I not know? Maybe cause the fact of how Kian is...
But the kiss was passionate and deep just like I remembered and loved before.

He slowly let go, still very close with his forehead on mine. His eyes were no longer dark and mysterious like they usually would be but instead they were soft.

Jacob came to my mind and I just realized what I've done.

"Stop," I say shoving him.
He looked hurt, his eyes going back to dark.
"I thought this is what you wanted?" He says confused and angrily.
"It's too late for this," I said.
"No it's not!" He says.
"Yes it is!" I shout back.
"Fine but once Jacob finds out he isn't gonna want you anymore," he says.
"He won't find out," I said.
"Sure about that," he says smirking.
"You wouldn't," I say.
"But I would," he says still smirking.
"I really thought this is what you wanted rose since the day of New Years," he added.
"It is! Or was, but not anymore" I said.
"Why? Is it because you found out it was me?" He says.
"No Kian that's not why," I say.
"Then what!" He shouts.
"I have a boyfriend!" I shout back.
He forcefully pushed my back to the wall and put both of his arms on either side of me.
"I can give you way more than he can," he whispers huskily.
I didn't say anything I was still in shock of what he just did.
"Treat you way better than he can," he added.
"Make you feel way better than he can," he says with one of his hands started from my waist going down, his finger tips running down my thigh.
"Don't tell me to stop because you know you don't want me to," he says looking up at me.
Dammit why does he have to be right
What is wrong with me?
"This isn't fair to Jacob,I'm not a cheater!" I shouted in one breath.
"But you did," he says.
"No really," I say sarcastically.
"And it's all because of you," I added frustrated with him.
I heard the echoes of  footsteps getting close to where Kian and I were.
"Hey is everything alright rose?" Andrea asked concerned.
"Everything's fine, right rose?" Kian asked me making sure I wouldn't say much.
"Oh really because I heard yelling and I was by the door it was pretty loud," Andrea said knowing Kian was lying.
"No really it doesn't matter lets just go back to the party," I say to her.
"No Andrea she'll meet you there," Kian said keeping me back by grabbing my arm.
"No I think rose would like to get back to the party," Andrea said grabbing my other arm.
"We just need to talk about something real quick," Kian said pulling me harshly and getting out of Andreas grip.
I whimpered under my breath from how hard he pulled me into him, his nails were digging into my right forearm.
"Both of you just stop!" I say finally pulling my arm out of Kians grip.
"Look there's nothing else to talk about, so come on Andrea," I say to Kian and then turning my back towards him and to face Andrea.
"Rose! Please," Kian says with pleading eyes as I turn back around to face him.
"Huh," I breathed.
"Andrea I'll meet you there in 5 minutes ok?" I said to her then turning back to Kian.
"You heard what I said Kian 5 minutes," I said crossing my arms.
"Um ok wow this is a lot of pressure really," he says rambling.
"Kian! I'm serious, now it's 4 minutes" I said impatient.
"Ok look rose," he started "I know your dating Jacob and all but seriously do you like him that much to pass on the guy that you've been looking for, for all these months?" He says.
I didn't answer I just stared.
"You'll get bored rose!" He snapped.
"What would you be any better!" I snapped back.
"As a matter of fact I would!" He says.
"No you won't all you'll do is argue with me like we are doing now is that not boring to you cause it surely is to me" I say.
"Ugh your so stubborn!" He says impatient with me.
"It's just common sense because I know if me and you ever happened this would no- "
I was cut of my Kian grabbing my face with both of his hands on the sides of my head, and kissing me.
I kissed him back...
Why at this time when I am in a relationship he does this? He tells me? He makes me feel things Jacob can't make me feel.
"No!" I say shoving him away.
I walked back through the patio doors and through living room with all the dancing people, pushing my way out the front door.
I dialed Jacobs number, I know I was mad at him but now I don't have a reason to be mad at him he should be the one mad at me. This guilt I had inside me was the worst feeling ever.
Jacob:"Hello?"
Me:"Hey what are you doing?"
Jacob:"Just laying down watching a movie with my little sister. How about you?"
Me:"Oh um I'm at a um a party"
Jacob:"Huh.. Who's party? Jc's?"
Me:"Ummm y-ee-ahh....
Jacob:"Why are you calling rose? What have you done?"
Me:"Nothing.. I was just wondering if you can come pick me up?"
I waited for him to respond
Jacob:"Yeah I guess I'll be there in 10 minutes"
Me:"Ok"
I don't know if I should tell him.. What would he think? Or do? He gets angry fast so right now I don't think I wanna deal with that.